#WHY IS SHE HIDING UNDER THE BED. JAEHEE. HELP ME. THERE'S A RIKA UNDER MY BED.

[marshmallowprotection]

What are your thoughts on the new Cg? Butler Saeran? I’m not use to the him nor Jumin and Zen with glasses. But they look good

Normally, I would do a lengthy analysis post about the image, but there isn’t much here for me to analyze! I do want to write something for the anniversary that I will try to get out before the end of the month, but it's not going to be tacked onto an image analysis since there isn't much for me to say here other than point out a few Easter eggs. 

I got what I wanted. Jaehee in a tuxedo. This is what I manifested at the start of the month and I am grateful that we not only got her in a maid outfit, we got her in a butler outfit, too. Jaehee stans, you have won and she is front and center! This is her moment and she is killing it. I feel the need to stare at her for a little while because it's cute and there's no way I'm going to let this moment pass me by without really appreciating Jaehee aesthetically.

I'll be honest, I don't know why the recent trend has been to make our boy Yoosung super clumsy. He's never really been a clumsy guy and I don't know where someone got the idea that Yoosung isn't on top of what he's doing. I will agree in saying he's probably the easiest person to bully in the entire universe because he's sweet and gullible, but he isn't clumsy, and yet, every image we've gotten of him this year other than his birthday image has had him busting his ass on the ground in one way or another.

Does ANYONE know why they're bullying Yoosung this bad? I mean, he's really cute here and I appreciate that he's trying his best to really impress the MC, but c'mon, give him a break.

I did not realize how badly I needed Jumin in glasses. Jumin's already a very handsome person but somehow adding glasses really elevates it here for some reason. I don't know how his vibe has enhanced for me but it has. I wear glasses myself and I always have, so it's nice to see the characters in glasses in official artwork because I'm always super curious to see how they would look. It's working for Jumin, that I can tell you.

I like that his hair isn't as neat and tidy as it usually is, too.

I fear they have slayed. Saeyoung and Zen are dazzling in their own right and I can't remember the last time they were drawn side by side but I think it's been a little while.

I've already noticed many people have pointed out that Saeyoung is wearing a ring. It's a little bit silly that he's wearing it over his glove, but I have to admit that is something he would do if this were his timeline. He is proud of the fact that he gets to live in this world, and he's even happier to know that he has somebody by his side who understands him more than anyone else. He's definitely that guy who doesn't stop talking about his partner because he's so in love. 

Zen with roses is something I've come to expect because he's also a traditional romantic. Red roses are the best way to captivate someone with your love and it’s no surprise that he follows that path. It might seem a little cliche but who is he if not somebody who loves romantic cliches? He is that guy who would watch romcoms with you all day long regardless of your relationship status with him, he just gets it.

I don't know how I feel about him wearing glasses since he doesn't seem like a glasses guy, but maybe if I saw him in sunglasses I might be able to rationalize this better. He's wearing a stylized pair here and I think it's the gold that's throwing me off. If it was silver, I don't think I would feel as perplexed by how I feel because silver fits him better as that's typically what he chooses for himself.  

Controversial thing to say every time I say it, but I have to tell you guys that Jihyun is still my third favorite character in the game, and I really don’t mind when Saeran and V are drawn together. I recognize that they do this because those two are tied together as the leads of Another Story, just as the core five, meaning Yoosung, Zen, Jaehee, Jumin, and Seven are drawn together.

But, to me, seeing Jihyun with everyone makes me feel like there is a timeline where V did the right thing for everyone and asked for help at the first sign of trouble instead of continually shooting himself in the foot. A lot of the art that's drawn with V included is self-indulgent and can only exist as true fanservice because it would never be true in most routes of the game. 

Normally, I would expect him to look exasperated in art like this but he seems to be fairly confident which is a good change for Jihyun. I’ll take it! 

I have no idea what they're doing here, did they choreograph a song and dance? They aren't the most coordinated members of the group so that makes me want to laugh. It's sweet, but I have a huge feeling they're going to trip over each other if not on their own feet. Saeran is as cute as always, I could talk about him for hours.

Seeing him as a butler always takes me back to when Ray said he would be happy to be your butler in a huge mansion. That was utterly indicative of the fact he was willing to become subservient to you if it meant you would stick around. That’s what the first bad ending is all about. Unfortunately, he thought so poorly of himself that he would be willing to make himself nothing more than something for you to push around if that's what you wanted. 

At least, in this context, he's doing it because he wants to make you happy, sure, but it's not something he's doing to make sure you stick around, he knows you'll still be there no matter what because he doesn't have to work himself to the bone to prove he's worthy of your companionship. 

I don't know if anybody picked this up but the painting is in homage to the anniversary image from two years ago. Rika was in the painting that time, and this time around, it's MC.

I do think it's worth noting that they are playing with light and dark imagery which is to be expected in a game that takes a lot of cues for religious imagery. Rika and MC are always bathed in white and black, light and dark, true contrast.

They're both wearing a dress that goes off of the shoulders, the only difference being the color and the style. MC has a more sleek pattern and Rika is bathed in ruffles. Rika’s seems to be more constrained and MC’s a little more loose around the edges. MC is free to make choices one way or the other by pushing outward, and Rika makes choices that go against her best interest as she pulls inward. I think another CG that plays on this is the BE from V Route.

Love her or hate her, there are important parallels at play here. 

In conclusion, Rika has always been like this in official art and I don't know what to tell you.

[marveloussupernerd]

Christmas in the Penthouse - Jumin Han

Summary: this takes place after Jumin’s ending in the Christmas DLC. Basically just what you guys did when you got to his penthouse :) not inappropriate tho even though it sounds that way from this description

Merry Christmas to you all, happy holidays if you don’t celebrate Christmas. I love you all so much

“I can’t believe it’s all over. The fundraiser, and we took everything down all in one night!” You smiled at Jaehee and Yoosung. “You two did a great job.”

“I’m glad you came early. It helped a lot!” Yoosung smiled.

Jaehee nodded. “It did. It’s almost 11 at night. I need to be getting to the office. Please tell me when you both get home safely.”

Oh yes, going home. You’d just call another Uber, even though they made you nervous, especially at night. It’d be okay.

“Thank you Jaehee!”

She left, hurrying to get to the office and get right back to work.

“I wish I could make sure you got home okay,” Yoosung pouted.

You shrugged. “That’s okay. I’m going to stay for a little to say goodbye to Jumin after he’s done talking to V.”

“I can’t believe you two...”

Your face was heating up. “We didn’t do anything. But I do like him.”

“Well it looks like they just finished talking. V looks relieved. Hopefully this is good news for the RFA.”

“Yoosung, you did a great job today. Rika would be so proud. Go home and get some rest.” You gave him a hug and said your goodbyes, then made your way to say goodnight to Jumin. V had already left it seemed.

“Jumin, tonight was...” how would you put it into words? “So special. Thank you.”

He was blushing. The lights had just shut off, leaving him illuminated by the moon and a few streetlights. He looked handsome as ever. “I should be the one thanking you. You’ve made this holiday unforgettable.” He tugged lightly on the sleeves of his dress shirt. “Are you going home?”

You tightened your scarf around you. It was cold. “Yeah, I’ll take another Uber.”

His eyes were wide, filled with concern. “Are you sure it’ll be okay?”

You nodded, putting on a smile. “Of course...” you couldn’t look him in the eyes.

“I may have just met you today but I can tell something’s wrong.”

You looked up at him. He was right.

“You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to,” he grabbed onto your hands gently, moving them slightly to bring warmth back into your fingertips.

“I... that Unknown guy messaged me last night,” you confessed. “And it kinda scared me. He said he wanted to come to the event and when I wouldn’t tell him about it he went on and on about getting his revenge...”

His face fell. He almost looked... angry. But then it was back to normal. “I’ll tell Luciel. Why... why don’t you stay at my penthouse tonight? I have security guards and two bedrooms of course and you could finally meet Elizabeth the 3rd.”

“I’d like that a lot. And then I can go home in the morning,” you nodded.

“Okay. We’ll do that.”

Jumin held your hand the entire way to the penthouse. In Driver Kim’s car, while he called Jaehee, the way up in the elevator. He wouldn’t let you go. He stopped outside of the door to his penthouse. “This is my head of security. This is the RFA coordinator. She’ll be staying here tonight. Her safety is the upmost priority.” He informed the man guarding the door. The guard gave you a polite wave. Jumin still had your hand.

He put on a kettle for tea first. Then he showed you around, taking his time to detail where you could find books or cups or anything you might need. Then you got to meet Elizabeth. He couldn’t find her at first, but the moment you sat down on the couch she joined you, sitting by your side.

You reached your hand out for her to sniff, which she seemed to do approvingly, then gently let her head. “Hi Elizabeth,” you smiled, focusing on the way her eyes closed when you got the perfect spot on her ear.

“She seems to like you,” Jumin smiled, sitting down on the couch next to the cat. “I’m happy to see that. Oh! I didn’t realize you still had your scarf on. I can take that.”

You untied the scarf then handed it to Jumin. And then it hit you. It seemed to hit him at the same time. “You don’t have any clothes to change into.”

“I just realized that as well...” you looked down at your outfit. The event was formal! So of course you were wearing a sweater, and like a fancy suit jacket, and a skirt. And that wasn’t comfy to sleep in. You unbuttoned the jacket and took it off. “It’s okay. This isn’t too bad to sleep in.”

“I’m so sorry. I would offer to get you some new clothes but I don’t think anything is open, especially at this hour on Christmas.” He ran a hand through his hair frustratedly. “I can call Assistant Kang and-“

“No! It’s okay.” You looked up at Jumin, a smile on your face. “I’m okay.”

“I have some pajama pants for me? I could give you those? I have sweatpants too! And shorts? They won’t fit you right but you could wear those if you’d prefer.”

As if you’d turn down the chance to wear Jumin’s clothes. “I’ll take a look if that’s okay.”

Jumin’s closet was huge. Most of it was dress clothes. But there was a part of the rack with some sweaters, like two t-shirts, and sweatpants. “I didn’t realize you wore this kind of stuff. But I guess you can’t wear suits all the time.”

“Yes. Well, this is for gardening. I’ve never worn the pants to be honest.”

You glanced at his line of striped dress shirts, your fingers instinctively reaching to it. “I can’t just wear this?”

His face was so red you thought he was going to faint. “No! No you can’t. That’s not suitable. I can show you my pajamas too. They’re over here,” he grabbed your hand, practically tearing you away from his dress shirts.

“I didn’t realize that would fluster you so much. It’s just a shirt. It was soft,” you told him, a giggle in your throat, as you kneeled down to go through his pajama drawer. Going through his drawer felt wrong. But he didn’t seem to have anything to hide so you assumed it was okay. You pulled out a plaid pair of pants, then teetered back to the closet to snatch a t-shirt. “This is okay though?” You asked, holding it up to him.

He let out a sigh of relief. “Yes. That’s perfect.”

You walked towards his bathroom. “I’m going to get changed. And you should too! I know you practically live in suits but I’ll feel super overdressed if you don’t change.”

He was in a silky set of powder blue and white striped pajamas. You were already on the couch when he entered the living room, your clothes folded neatly and set on the coffee table, Elizabeth in your lap.

He took a seat next to you, trying not to be obvious with how he looked you up and down. He chuckled. “My pants are too long on you.”

You had to roll them a few times for them to fit. It was no secret Jumin was tall. “I like it though. I don’t know, I feel all warm and fuzzy in this.”

He sat close to you, wrapping his arms around you like he had done earlier in the night. He moved close to cuddle you, nuzzling his cheek into your shoulder. “You feel warm and fuzzy too.”

“Can you turn on the tv or something?” You asked. He nodded, turning it on and handing you the remote. “With all the excitement I need something to unwind before I can fall asleep.”

You stayed cuddled with him. He had his phone out, doing some messages for work due to the fundraiser. Every once in a while he’d kiss your cheek or squeeze you tighter so you knew he was still there. You knew you were getting tired. You’d just close your eyes for a minute.

Your phone was vibrating. Nonstop. You opened your eyes, reaching for it. Jumin was still holding you right. “4 missed calls from Zen!? Seriously,” you groaned.

“He found out you were staying here.” Jumin’s voice was low and quiet. He sounded tired.

You picked up the phone. “Zen? I was sleeping”

“Tell me you’re not at his house!?” He sounded like he was spiraling over the phone.

“Yeah, I’m with Jumin right now.” You glanced at him. He was smiling.

“You need to leave. All men are wolves, especially at night. You think he’ll be a gentleman just because it’s Christmas!?” He was half shouting. You had to hold the phone away from your ear.

“Jumin is a perfect gentleman,” you stated simply.

“No! I won’t let you fall for his tricks. I’m coming to pick you up right now.”

“And then what? I stay at your house? But all men are wolves Zenny~” You cooed. Jumin chuckled, pulling you closer even and kissing your head. You looked back at him and winked.

“Ah! I!” The line went silent. “Call me if you need anything! Anything! He’s not right in his head.”

“Okay. Merry Christmas by the way!”

“Merry Christmas Zenny!” Jumin called over the phone. You exploded into laughter. Zen groaned an hung up first.

“It’s time to get you to bed,” Jumin smiled, standing up and stretching. “As cute as your giggles are.”

“But Jumin! You promised you’d say something cute,” you reminded him of his promise earlier during the event.

“Oh! Have I not said anything cute this whole time?”

“You’ve got me there,” you shrugged. “You’re very cute.”

He walked you to your bedroom, stopping at the door. “Here’s your room for the night.”

You had finally had him. He had you. And it sucked to spend time away from him while under the same roof. “We really can’t share? Or just cuddle on the couch and sleep? You’re going to go back all the way to your room?” You crossed your arms.

“I am. Forgive me. I... I would not want to overdo anything tonight. I’m just so happy to have you here that I don’t want to do anything wrong.” He looked awkwardly to the side. “But if you need anything I’m right down the hall.”

“Okay,” your voice was soft. “Good night Jumin. Merry Christmas.”

One of his hands cupped your cheek, pulling your face so close to his that you could feel his every exhale. The other arm settled on your waist, pulling you slightly closer. “Could I give you a good night kiss?” He whispered.

You nodded eagerly. That was all he needed to close the distance, soft lips meeting your own in a slow, but loving kiss. He didn’t stay for too long, afraid of overstaying his welcome. He pressed one more quick kiss to your lips again. “Merry Christmas.”

[rayneul]

Ray Route Bad Ending 3 Guide

(donʼt/never answer messages it give good heart so i suggest dont answer it :))

Day 4 (100%)

00:16 – I Keep Thinking of You

Selection 1 You’re back! (Nothing)

Selection 2 That’s the one we saw in the garden! (Ray)

Selection 3 I would’ve been glad if you really did grab me. (Ray)

Selection 4 That sounds like a dream… (Ray)

Selection 5 I would’ve had a hard time playing this game if this wasn’t a game that you gave to me to test. (Ray)

Selection 6 I think they’re making another secret behind my back… (Ray)

Selection 7 I think it’s a bit hypocritical… (Ray)

Selection 8 No, money can’t solve everything. (Ray)

Selection 9 I think all members of the RFA are somewhat nervous and unstable. (Nothing)

Selection 10 I think he has an inner problem. (Ray)

Selection 11 Can I save everyone if I see the endings? (Nothing)

Selection 12 Alright! I’ll play until the end. (Ray)

Selection 13 Not really. I’m happy enough. (Nothing)

Selection 14 Sure, I’ll think about it. (Ray)

Selection 15 I’m gonna stay up for a bit. (Nothing)

02:34 – What’s wrong?

Selection 1 Hello, Seven. (Nothing)

Selection 2 Please, calm down…! (Nothing)

Selection 3 If it happened past midnight…then that would be the developer. (Ray)

Selection 4 hey (Nothing)

Selection 5 hehe it’s not a bug – I know what it is (Ray)

Selection 6 I’m sorry that I crashed in T-T waaah… (Nothing)

Selection 7 Who’s your watcher? (707)

Selection 8 I can’t imagine what will befall if Seven’s cosplay photos are released T-T (707)

Selection 9 If I give you some money as a tribute, what are you going to use it for? (Nothing)

Selection 10 I think Jaehee should be in charge of accounting ^^ (Jaehee)

Selection 11 Who shall take the throne of the Seven Kingdom…? (707)

Selection 12 Ugh, my head… (Nothing)

Selection 13 Did you make it yourself, Seven? (707)

Selection 14 I’ll check my avatar closet and pick the one I like lol (Ray)

Selection 15 Is he an actor? (Nothing)

Selection 16 Really? He’s that good-looking? (Nothing)

Selection 17 He’s actually a girl! (Nothing)

Selection 18 Is he the kind of guy who’s the sum of you and Jumin together? (Nothing)

Selection 19 Your voice is getting smaller… (Zen)

Selection 20 Me too! Let’s invite him! (Email from chickendelivery)

Selection 21 I will go to bed… sooner or later… (Nothing)

Selection 22 To whom? (Nothing)

Selection 23 Good night! (Nothing)

Selection 24 You have a lot to work on T-T (Nothing)

Selection 25 Tell your housemaid I said hi! (Nothing)

08:15 – All-Nighter

Selection 1 Jaehee, have you seen Seven’s picture? (707)

Selection 2 I’m not really interested… (Nothing)

Selection 3 Tell me about it… Health is everything. (Nothing)

Selection  4 Hello. (Nothing)

Selection 5 You didn’t stay up all night thinking about Rika, did you? (Nothing)

Selection 6 I’m also staying up all night for this game with a bunch of AIs… (Ray)

Selection 7 My definition of friends is someone I actually meet. (Nothing)

Selection 8 You took a nap during class? (Nothing)

Selection 9 What kind of friends did you meet in games? (Nothing)

Selection 10 Umm…that’s a bit sad… (Nothing)

Selection 11 How did you deal with your stress before getting into college, Jaehee? (Nothing)

Selection 12 Did you play go…? (Nothing)

Selection 13 hehehe… (Nothing)

Selection 14 Playing games too much is not good for your health. So you should set a limit- (Yoosung)

Selection 15 But you should deal with the fundamental problem… (Ray)

Selection 16 But you still gotta find out what you can! (Ray)

Selection 17 Umm…could you let me know if you find out what secret there is? (Ray)

Selection 18 From now on you should play just about right. (Nothing)

Selection 19 Sleep tight! (Nothing)

Selection 20 And I think he deserves an applaud for trying to find his answers under his circumstances. (Ray)

Selection 21 Sure. I’ll see you later! You can leave Yoosung to me – ^^ (Nothing)

10:22 – Understanding and Respect

Selection 1 Welcome, V! (Nothing)

Selection 2 I think you should tell me what you’re hiding before you ask what I know. (Ray)

Selection 3 I’ll think about it, depending on what you show me. (Ray)

Selection 4 Creating a lot of secrets doesn’t help communication, either… (Ray)

Selection 5 Hello, Jumin. (jumin)

Selection 6 Are you jealous? Lol (Jumin)

Selection 7 I already told you that I can’t answer that part… (Nothing)

Selection 8 Interest…? Wait, are you…? (Nothing)

Selection 9 Anything suspicious going on? (Ray)

Selection 10 So he’s trying to make a deal by using his son… (Ray)

Selection 11 Jumin, I think this is up to you, without any bias or prejudice. (jumin)

Selection 12 But you’re rich! Money for the win! (Nothing)

Selection 13 Is there a secret to your father’s private life? (Ray)

Selection 14 Count me in too! (Ray)

Selection 15 So you’re saying you don’t like it? (Nothing)

Selection 16 What is it? (Ray)

Selection 17 Goodbye! (Nothing)

Selection 18 You think so? He looks like..a cold son of a rich family. (Nothing)

Selection 19 I agree. It feels like Jumin kind of knows what you’re hiding, but he’s pretending that he doesn’t know. (Jumin)

Selection 20 I think Jumin will not be happy with that when he hears it. (Nothing)

Selection 21 Do you think that I’ll find myself in danger? (Ray)

12:00 – Really Want to See You

Selection 1 Huh…? You’re back. (Nothing)

Selection 2 Does it hurt a lot? I’m worried… (Ray)

Selection 3 Yes, I’ll make sure I tell you…! (Ray)

Selection 4 Yes, he sounded like…like you’re a threat to the RFA, Ray. (Nothing)

Selection 5 Yes…this game could be over if I tell them, right? (Ray)

Selection 6 Looks like you hate all members of the RFA, Ray… (Nothing)

Selection 7 Do you want me to pursue that AI? Would that help you? (Ray)

Selection 8 I wonder what the happy ending is like! I’ll keep the secret. (Ray)

Selection 9 I want to be with you if I can! (Ray)

Selection 10 You mean Yoosung? (Nothing)

Selection 11 Programmed? So you mean you’re also… (Nothing)

Selection 12 Doesn’t that mean it’s more work for you, Ray? (Ray)

Selection 13 Yes, I’d like to stay with you…and continue playing this game you make for me. (Ray)

Selection 14 Take your pills now! I hope you get better! (Ray)

Selection 15 I’ll try. (Nothing)

14:41 – Portrait of the Youthful Days

Selection 1 Hey! (Nothing)

Selection 2 Did you do well? Lol (Nothing)

Selection 3 There goes your dream of campus life… (Nothing)

Selection 4 Becoming the best gamer in the country? (Nothing)

Selection 5 I think the purpose of your application is a bit off, but I’ll give you a pass… This world is a bit off in the first place… (Nothing)

Selection 6 Unemployment is a serious issue… (Nothing)

Selection 7 Listening to you makes me wanna lie in my bed…thinking of nothing in particular. (Nothing)

Selection 8 Maybe Jumin will hire you… (Nothing)

Selection 9 Whoa! That’s one knack of a timing! (Nothing)

Selection 10 Couldn’t you ask a bit more subtly…? (Jumin)

Selection 11 Jumin is right! But some people get jobs because they wanna make money. (Nothing)

Selection 12 I hope social discrepancy would be gone soon. (Nothing)

Selection 13 I’m a genius. My IQ’s like…299? (Nothing) I’m 16 years old. I think it’s somewhere around the average… (Nothing)

Selection 14 It’s a group of people with super-high IQ… (Nothing)

Selection 15 I wanna be an intern too lol (Ray)

Selection 16 So you want someone obedient… (Nothing)

Selection 17 Jaehee is so professional. She’s so impressive. (Jaehee)

Selection 18 So you guys have a complicated relationship. (Nothing)

selection 19 Right he is. (Nothing)

Selection 20 Good idea! (Jumin)

Selection 21 Sounds like an indirect way of self-promotion (Nothing)

Selection 22 That’s why I wanna find out what he’s hiding…seriously. (Ray)

Selection 23 Who could it be? (Nothing)

Selection 24 What? (Nothing)

Selection 25 It’s all thanks to the games. (Nothing)

Selection 26 You really care a lot for V. (Jumin)

Selection 27 Goodbye – (Nothing)

17:36 – Afternoon of Anxiety

Selection 1 Is there something wrong with you, V? (Ray)

Selection 2 Where are you right now? (Ray)

Selection 3 Welcome, Seven!! (Nothing)

Selection 4 Is this that surprise? (Ray + Alt Selection)

Alt Selection Oh… just remembered what a sloe friend of mine told me. Don’t mind me. (Nothing)

Selection 5 Just where are you, V? Why would your phone be dead? (Ray)

Selection 6 Could you send it to me too? (Ray)

Selection 7 What about your identity, Seven? Tell me! (Ray)

Selection 8 I don’t think you’d be able to find this person, Seven. (Ray)

Selection 9 Him? (Nothing)

Selection 10 I think you’ve only got what you deserve for your past. (Ray)

Selection 11 It’s fun to watch him like that. (Ray)

Selection 12 What are you going to talk about? Tell me! (Ray)

Selection 13 I’m sure the other members would want to know. (Nothing)

Story Mode – More of this guy…

- You mean this email incident with 707? (Nothing)

- I didn’t really feel good seeing them so anxious. (Nothing)

- Yes, it was a surprise. But that’s why I like it. (Nothing)

- Okay. (Nothing)

18:42 – Mask Made of Glass

Selection 1 I think this secret between V and Seven is serious… (Ray)

Selection 2 Can you share what you know about Luciel’s past? (Ray)

Selection 3 Are you feeling better? (Nothing)

Selection 4 Feeling ok now? (Nothing)

Selection 5 Don’t pretend you’r eok. It’s heartbreaking… (Nothing)

Selection 6 V told you to say all this, right? (Ray)

Selection 7 I didn’t think you’d be like this, Seven… (Nothing)

Selection 8 You act like you have a bug or something. (Nothing)

Selection 9 oh no looks like a bug…! I should tell him. (Ray)

Selection 10 C Language…? (Nothing)

Selection 11 If inviting this language can help you calm down…then let’s do it!! (Email from clanguage)

Selection 12 A kiss…? (Nothing)

Selection 13 Haagen-Dash 31 (Nothing)

Selection 14 Bye! (Nothing)

Selection 15 Well…don’t care. He’s not the one I pursue. (Nothing)

Selection 16 I guess time in the answer. (Nothing)

Selection 17 Sure. Have a good one, Jaehee! (Nothing)

20:10 – Zen’s Worrisome Looks

Selection 1 Welcome, Zen! (Nothing)

Selection 2 I hope he’ll cheer up…

Selection 3 Go to bed early. That’s the best remedy. (Nothing)

Selection 4 yes me too! (Nothing)

Selection 5 hey (Nothing)

Selection 6 Let’s just focus on holding the party! (Nothing)

Selection 7 Yeah, that’s right. You need to take care of yourself. (Zen)

Selection 8 Yes, sort of – (Nothing)

Selection 9 That’s so sweet… (Nothing)

Selection 10 I think you’d better take Zen’s advice when it comes to skincare – (Zen)

Selection 11 Hindow10update T-T It’s so annoying (Yoosung)

Selection 12 Let’s invite him! I wanna get some masks too! (Email from costume)

Selection 13 I’ve been hearing you talk, and it all sounds like showing off (Yoosung)

Selection 14 byebye (Nothing)

Selection 15 Zen you should concentrate on your audition tomorrow. (Zen)

Selection 16 I can knock you out and lock you up in a room. ^^ (Nothing)

Selection 17 Sleep tight and it’ll be ok. Have faith in yourself! (Zen)

Selection 18 Goodbye. (Nothing)

Selection 19 Huh? I see a mole! (Nothing)

Selection 20 I’m afraid gods will be angry T-T (Zen)

Selection 21 You’re so sweet Zen… Sleep tight ^^ (Nothing)

21:53 – Nice

Selection 1 What did you talk about with Seven? I’d really like you to tell me now. (Nothing)

Selection 2 Why would you ask that all of a sudden? (Nothing)

Selection 3 I should try harder. (Nothing)

Selection 4 But this is really nothing but events inside a pho…uh, nothing. (Ray)

Selection 5 I think the two of you are playing secrets and ditching the rest. (Ray)

Selection 6 Thank you…! (Nothing)

Selection 7 Do I really look innocent? (Nothing)

Selection 8 Your concern is pointless. (V Break)

Selection 9 When is it? (Nothing)

Selection 10 What? That’s too fast! (Nothing)

Selection 11 Off to a secret service? (Ray)

22:49 – What I Want to Say

Selection 1 Am I going to make the contract now! (Ray)

Selection 2 I decided to stay here with you. (Ray)

Selection 3 Whose face is it? (Nothing)

Selection 4 Me too… I like you too, Ray. (Ray)

Selection 5 I won’t betray you, I promise. (Ray)

Selection 6 Yes, please trust me. (Ray)

Selection 7 Of course. I’m so touched, Ray… (Ray)

Selection 8 I’ll be waiting… (Nothing)

[fandom-collective-writers]

What Am I Without You

Fandom: Mystic Messenger

Pairing: Jumin x MC

Prompt: You’re going to regret that, sweetheart.

Warning: Angst, Death of major character, depression, denial

Rested by: Anon @ikemen-discord-writers

Written by: @kiarigirl

Word Count: 1556

Summary: Jumin works from early in the morning until late at night most nights leaving you under house arrest.  So you do the only thing you can.  Thank goodness for the messenger.  If he won’t let you have a life outside the RFA and the penthouse, you’ll tell everyone what being Jumin’s girlfriend is really like, but at what price?

A/N: I get that Saeyoung is supposed to be the one MC is supposed to get with but his story left me more angry than sad.  Jumin’s story felt real and authentic to me.  I couldn’t imagine either Jumin or MC being able to exist without the other once they fell in love.  

“I want a job.  I’m tired of sitting alone in the penthouse all day long.”  It was the same argument as always.  Jumin didn’t like his precious MC being out where she could get hurt and so he was keeping her prisoner.  Even no longer allowing her to venture just within the building.  “I’m serious Jumin.  Hey are you even listening to me?”  

Jumin patted her head before heading to the door.  “You’re really adorable when you’re angry.”  Then he walked out the door.  The all to familiar lock closing reminded the girl that she was for the next eight to twelve hours a prisoner.  At least Jaehee, who was a company slave, was permitted to go outside.  

She picked up her phone and logged into the RFA messenger.  No one else was present yet, but it was about the time others would be logging on.  She typed her first message.

MC: Jumin, please we need to talk about this.

MC: I guess all those promises you made meant nothing.

MC: How would you like it if I told everyone what being your girlfriend really entails?

MC: Come to think of it, didn’t Zen, Yoosung and 707 want girlfriends?

JUMIN HAS ENTERED THE CHAT

Jumin: MC!  It’s not appropriate to be discussing our relationship with others.  

Jumin: I must insist that you log out and wait for me to call you.

707 HAS ENTERED THE CHAT

707: What?  

707: Jumin, you told everyone that MC was happy.

MC: Me happy?  You’re joking right?

MC: Let me tell you how unhappy I am.

Jumin: You’re gonna regret that, sweetheart.

JUMIN HAS LEFT THE CHAT

For a brief moment her heart raced.  Had she really pushed him too far this time?  The only time he called her sweetheart was when he was displeased with her and about to punish her.  She was about to tell everyone the awful truth about how life was with Jumin when her cell phone lost service.  “Just great.  He had my phone shut off.”  She slammed the phone down and went to her room.  

A few minutes passed before the front door opened.  She peeked out and saw it was one of the guards.  Her first thought was to ask what the warden wanted but she said nothing.  It wasn’t their fault that their employer was a tyrant.  “Miss MC, I was told to help you pack your belongings and take you back to your old apartment.”  Her heart sank.  

“Why?  I live here with Jumin.  I will call him and straighten this out.”  

The guard stepped inside and moved to the guest bedroom.  He wasted no time gathering up as much stuff as he could fit into the box.  “It’s Mr Han’s orders.  Come along.”  MC didn’t want to go, but had no choice.  She began to cry as her things were carried down to a waiting car.  Was it over?  Did Jumin break up with her because she threatened to tell everyone about not being allowed outside?  Everything seemed to be happening so fast.

MC arrived at the old apartment a short time later.  Her guard dropped her belongings on the bed before leaving.  She was alone.  When she had first joined the RFA, she was alone but this was different.  She hadn’t been in love then and now, now she was brokenhearted.  

She found her old phone and logged into the messenger.  It had been flooded with concern from nearly everyone.  Even V had logged only to be left wondering what had happened.  MC sobbed as she read the last message.

JUMIN ENTERED THE CHAT

You wanted your freedom well now you have it.  Please never contact me again.

JUMIN LEFT THE CHAT

This hadn’t been what she wanted.  It wasn’t supposed to end this way.  Not for them.  She tucked her phone in her pocket and rushed to the street.  She called for a cab to pick her up.  She couldn’t just let Jumin go.  

She arrived at the C&R building a half hour later.  MC entered the building and told the receptionist who she was there to see.  “I’m sorry Miss, but Jumin Han has left the country for a business trip.  He won’t be back for a week.  Would you like to speak to his assistant?”  MC nodded as she tried to bite back the tears that threatened to fall.

Jaehee rounded the corner after having been called down by the receptionist.  “MC?  Oh goodness you look awful.  Come, let’s take a walk.”  Jaehee looked at the receptionist and nodded.  “Have any calls transferred to my phone.  I shouldn’t be gone long.”

Together they pair walked to a nearby coffee house.  “What happened MC?  Jumin came in crying this morning after your argument on messenger and then he said he needed to leave.”  

MC was equally as confused in truth.  She tried to explain to Jaehee what she could.  “I have been asking Jumin to let me get a job, even just in the building where the penthouse is but he won’t let me.  I felt trapped in the penthouse and now he wants nothing to do with me.  He even sent me back to Rika’s old apartment.”  

The women continued to talk for a  couple more minutes when Jaehee’s phone rang.  “Let me take this call.”  She got up and walked a little bit down the street.  

“What?  Are you sure it was Mr Han’s plane?  Did anyone die?  Yes, keep me updated.”  

MC heard it all.  It sounded bad.  If Jumin died in a plane crash, she could never apologize to him.  She could never get back what was lost and most importantly, she had nothing to live for.  Tears streamed down her face and she long longer tried to hide them.  “I heard.  I just hope Jumin’s alright.”

Jaehee touched her arm.  “Come on.  Let’s go back.  I will call a driver to take you home.  MC walked sullenly back to the C&R building with Jaehee.

Time slipped through her fingers.  One minute she had been at the C&R building and the next, at the old apartment.  She couldn’t recall how she got there, but she walked up to the floor where the apartment was.  MC gave a half hearted wave to the camera, sure 707 was watching then opened the door.

Sitting on her bed was Jumin Han.  He looked at her tear stained face and almost felt bad for what he had done.  “MC?”

She rushed towards him as if not sure if he was there or if she dreamed him there.  Her hands wrapped around him and held him tight.  “Jumin.  I heard your plane crashed.  How is it you’re here?”  MC had so many questions for him to answer.

“I never left.  I called Jaehee, told her to tell everyone I would be gone for a week.  Then after I watched you leave the C&R building with Jaehee, I called and told her to react as if my plane had crashed.”  He grabbed her shoulders firmly.  “I wanted you to feel the pain I would feel if I lost you.  I know you think I am keeping you prisoner, but I’m just trying to protect you.  I had never known love before you.  I was beginning to think I was asexual, but then I met you and you showed me how to love.  I am so afraid to lose you.  I am sorry.  Can you understand and forgive me?”  He waited silently for her to speak.  

“But why did you forbid me from even working at a place in the building?  Why did you send me back here and tell me never to contact you again?”  He recognized her pain and pulled her close to his chest. 

“As I said, I needed you to feel my pain.  It felt like you wanted to be free of me.  Like that time Elizabeth the 3rd escaped.”  She understood then he didn’t handle being abandoned and her attempts to come and go as she pleased felt like she was abandoning him.  

She kissed his cheek.  “I promise I will never abandon you.  I just wanted a part time job where I am not home alone.”  

“Let me hire you then as one of my assistants.  I will know you are safe then and we both kind of get what we want.”

Her body shook and when she looked up.  V, Zen, Yoosung, 707 and Jaehee were all standing there watching her.  “MC, it’s time to go.”

“Go where,” she asked.  

“To Jumin’s funeral,” Zen said holding her close to him.  

“But Jumin was right here.  I was just talking to him.”  When she looked around there was no sign of him anyplace. There was no sign of her apartment or Jumin’s either.

“She hasn’t been handling it well since she heard.”  Zen said to the other RFA members.  “I often find her talking to herself as if Jumin is right there with her.  I wish they hadn’t gotten into that fight.  He might still be here with her otherwise.”

After the funeral was over, MC resigned from the RFA.  She knew that without Jumin, she couldn’t go on.  No one saw or heard from her again.  She locked herself away where she could live with the memories of Jumin.

[shikikira]

Pajama Problems - Ch 02

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Previous Chapter

Summary: What if the pajamas Jumin had bought hadn’t quite fit Ami (MC/OC)? What if she was much bustier than she seemed? The issues Jumin and Ami suffer as he attempts to dress her each night.

Rating: M

Word Count: 3,005

As Jumin walked off to take care of his personal matters, Ami watched him, conflict playing across her face.

She wasn’t sure if he was deliberately trying to hide it from her for propriety sakes, but she had recognized that heated look in Jumin’s eyes. It was the same amorous lust she often saw in Aaron and Shigeru’s eyes when they didn’t think she was looking.

Biting her lip, she didn’t know what she was going to do with this tidbit of information.

As much as she was attracted to Jumin, she knew the type of person he was. Once upon a time, they had been friends even if she was the only one who had thought so. He hadn’t changed much since they’re last meeting in New York. And the two of them weren’t all that different from each other; scions of wealthy and powerful families, a former celebrity for a mother, their unspoken loneliness, the pressures of being perfect, and etc.

It was because of their similarities that she knew they weren’t what each other needed in their life especially not as spouses.

Given their very different careers and should she actually marry Jumin in the future, their home would be immensely lonely.

With the both them constantly traveling for work, they would almost never have someone to come home. No one to welcome them home. No warm smile or hug waiting for them after a long day. No guarantees of when or even if one of them would be home.

Of course, one of them could quit their jobs so that they could be together more often. But who?

She highly doubted Jumin would. His tendency to work Jaehee to the ground was proof of his own workaholic tendencies. Something he’d probably continue should he ever leave C&R and start his own business; a matter they had once discussed at one of the many friendly gatherings during the year of his cousin, Han Soojin, and her debut at the International Debutante Ball in New York.

She, on the other hand, also wouldn’t be willing to quit. They’d probably argue about her job often as she refused to give up her lifelong career to become some man’s housewife trophy. It didn’t matter if that the businessman could be Jumin, she wouldn’t do it.

She wasn’t raised to be some pampered princess; she was a fighter like everyone else in her clan. She wasn’t going to just stay home and wait for him obediently like some trained pet. She had a life that didn’t include fulfilling  a rich husband or her parents every whim.

But none of that mattered. The entire point was moot as there was no chance of her ever getting together with Jumin, much less marry him.

Plus, it wasn't as if Jumin was in love with her. Lusting maybe, but she was certain he held no real affection for her.

The director had made it point that he didn't remember anything about her, telling her that all his past memories with women had been nothing but pain.

She squeezed her eyes shut as frustration boiled within her, knuckles turning white as her hands practically strangled her shirt's front.

He hadn't even recognized her face when they had finally seen each other again after five long years.

And it’s not like my face has changed since the first time we met over a decade ago.

Wiping her tears away, she straightened her back and set off to the closet Jumin had directed her to. There was no point in crying; her sadness and frustration over her current predicament wasn't going to some anything.

Yes, she may have had a crush on Jumin for the longest time, and yes, she found herself exceedingly attracted to him, but she wasn’t fifteen anymore. She wasn’t the sixteen-year-old girl who had her heartbroken and didn’t understand what had gone wrong or why her heart had suddenly felt like it had been ripped out and stomped on.

She was almost twenty-one. She had a life of her own with duties and obligations she was responsible for.

She couldn’t just drop everything in her life and let her hormones dictate her future. Her choices didn’t affect just her, but her entire family too. Even more so as she’ll finally be marrying her fiancé next month on Christmas day.

Taking a deep breath, she shook her head as she re-centered herself, her hair flying in every direction in the process.

When they had been chatting through the messenger, it had been so much easier maintaining her calm. Phone calls with Jumin had been an arduous struggle especially with what he had said about her voice during her debut, but she was always able to hide it with some rudimentary acting.

Now that she was physically near him and talking to him in person, she was being far more emotionally irrational than she usually was, and it was exactly what she didn’t need right now.

One of them needed to stay calm and rational especially since Jumin wasn’t feeling like himself and was racked with anxiety. If she didn’t stay level-headed, she didn’t even want to know what would happen.

As she checked each door she passed for the closet Jumin mentioned, Ami couldn’t help but think about her fiancé. It was complicated and stressful situations like this when she was so grateful to her fiancé and everything he put up with for her.

And it may have only been a few days since they had last been together, but she missed him already. A single weekend together hadn’t been enough for either of them after being apart for so long.

If she had to blame anyone, she honestly would lay it on Jihyun. Long-time friend he may be, but it was his eye surgery and the matter with his psycho ex-girlfriend that had cut her time with her fiancé short.

The night she had her reunion with Jihyun and Jumin had also been the night she should have been flying out to meet up with her fiancé. Instead of leaving for France as intended, she had to delay her trip for several days.

Rather than going on romantic dates and catching up with her other overseas work as planned, she had to explain to Luciel, whose real name was apparently Saeyoung, about the true origins of the R. F. A. and the crimes Rika had committed prior to the R.F.A.’s establishment. She also had to force Jihyun into giving up Rika's whereabouts, lest she harm more people than she already has, and into getting the eye surgery he desperately needed.

Half the days she was supposed to spend celebrating her darling's birthday was wasted on a matter that should have been resolved four years ago and never have exploded like it did.

What the hell was so hard about letting go of that psycho? She murdered a newly made mother and attempted to murder one of your closest friends. Everything could have been avoided if you had just mentioned that the bitch had psychotic breaks, Jihyun. Ami fumed, angrily throwing the next door open.

“Oh hey, it's the closet,” she blinked, temporarily distracted from her righteous fury.

For a moment, she debated whether or not she really needed something else from Jumin. She still had her other shirt, but did she really want to wear a tight sports top with a built in bra to bed? She’ll no doubt develop sweat between and under her breasts from it.

And it wasn’t like she normally wore clothes to bed. She generally preferred sleeping in just a pair of panties or naked while cuddled up against her fiancé.

But she couldn’t do that here. This was Jumin’s home, and as a guest she needed to stay modest in respect to him.

Wandering into the room, she quietly looked through the selection, wondering what she could possibly wear for the night. The most she’s ever worn to bed by were the chemise nightgowns her sisters had bought her or a sleeping yukata, and that was only when she was at her relative’s residences or a ryokan.

I wonder what Shi-chan would want to see me in. Jumin sure has a lot of long sleeves in here.

Running a hand along a rack of shirts, she thought back on her beloved and her botched trip.

Shigeru, or Shi-chan as she had taken to calling him, was her loving and beyond wonderful fiancé. There was no one in the world who could make her feel as comfortable in her own skin, or got her in the same way as he did. He was always able to put her at ease when she was overcome with anxiety.

He such a great and understanding person. He never got angry when her job or their family matters forced them to reschedule dates among other things.

He hadn’t even been angry about her having to cancel some of their plans for his birthday. Yes, he had been upset, but he understood why she had to do it; he wanted justice for their family and cousin Emi as much as she did, if not more.

Originally, she was supposed to meet up with him once his medical symposium had ended for the day, and they'd catch up with one another at one of the chic cafes they both enjoyed so much. Shigeru would fill her in on whatever the topic of the symposium he had attended had been about over dinner. 

He had seemed so excited to tell her all about it when they had chatted over the phone, so she guessed it had something to do with new neurological findings.

After dinner, they'd been set to meet up with some of their relatives for an early birthday party. The party hadn’t been for Shigeru’s actual birthday as they had set that date aside for themselves.

But, of course, all of that had fallen through at the last minute, and she had barely been able to see him for two nearly; one of which she had to share with their fellow charity group members. Thankfully, she been able to have him to herself on his birthday.

Even though their marriage had been arranged, she couldn’t imagine being with anyone else or even loving anyone but him. Of course, their relationship wasn’t perfect, but whose was. They’ve had their highs, lows, and relationship problems like any other couple, but they loved each other and were strong enough and willing to work through their issues.

She may not be anywhere near as smart as Shigeru, but, if she may be so bold, they complemented each other perfectly. While she pursued a career in the arts and made her main salary off her acting and musical talents, he pursued a career in the sciences and made his living as a surgeon and researcher. Where the other faltered, the other always excelled.

The two of them were nearly complete opposites, but they worked together almost seamlessly and pushed each other towards greater heights.

Especially in the bedroom. Her mind added wantonly.

As they had learned the Lunar New Year after publicly announcing their engagement, both she and Shigeru have a voracious sexual appetite. With how outrageously high their libidos were, they might as well be labeled as hypersexuals; they probably were.

Just thinking about their sexual compatibility had Ami blushing a comely pink as lust clouded her sight.

Her core clenched in longing as she remembered how they had celebrated his birthday. The many hours in which they spent wrapped up in each other as they christened every surface of their newest property.

A soft needy moan escaped her as the memory of Shigeru’s long, thick cock embedded in her greedy folds, pounding out orgasm after orgasm as they ravished each other ravenously.

After having spent almost the entirety of the seventh working their charity run and celebrating with their fellow charity members, they hadn’t been able to get back to their newest Paris residence fast enough for their liking.

Before the door to their extravagant garden townhouse had even closed, Shigeru already had her back pressed up against the foyer wall and skirt hiked up over her hips, fingers buried deep within her core.

She remembered the feeling of the wall against her back as he had stolen her lips in a fierce kiss, the sweet bitterness of café liégeois on his tongue. How his plundering kiss had built a fervor need in her center, tightening, growing with his every touch. How his tongue had massaged her own, stroking and rubbing along all her weak points until she was a moaning puddle in his skilled hands.

She remembered how his fingers had felt inside of her as he furiously pumped his fingers in and out of her. His thumb mercilessly rubbing her pearl, working her into a sensual frenzy even as she freed him of his own clothes.

Why Shigeru had decided to wear a three-piece suit at one of their least formal events, she’d never know. But by god did he get her hot and bothered when he dressed up like that.

Unhindered by her movements, Shigeru’s other hand had skillfully unzipped her dress and pulled it off of her as he drove her into ecstasy for the first time that night, her walls clamping down on his fingers, searching for something larger.

She whimpered at the memory of how she had dropped to her trembling knees and took him into her wanting mouth.

Forgetting where she was, she quickly shimmied out of her bottoms, her hand slipping down to her wet heat, teasing her swollen bud.

Moaning deeply, she imagined her fiancé’s thick, throbbing cock sliding in and out of her mouth as her fingers plunged into her empty heat, searching for the spot he always hit to make her see stars.

In her aroused state, her nipples furled almost painfully, peering prominently through the thin material of her shirt. Her shirt burst open, her stiff, swelling breasts too much for the already straining buttons to take.

Groaning, she leaned forward and braced herself against one of the closet dressers, her aching breast falling out of her now open top.

Cheek touching the dresser top, her free hand grasped one of her large breasts, kneading the sensitive flesh roughly and tugging at her puffy nipple. Her other hand increased in speed as she worked to bring herself to the precipice of pleasure. Her memories of her many nights of vigorous passion with her fiancé egging her on.

She had adored how Shigeru had dragged her off his cock and hefted her into his arms only to impale her onto his girthy length. How his delicious lips had latched on to one of her lace covered nipples, suckling hungrily as he dragged her further down his shaft.

“Sh-Shi-chan,” she gasped, remembering the euphoria her fiancé had instilled in her as he stretched her tight core, giving her the exquisite feeling of bursting fullness that no other could or would ever give her.

Holding her by the hips, he had pulled her down to meet him thrust for thrust as he drove up into her, hitting a spot that forced a shriek of delight from her kiss bruised lips.

Feeling her climax coming, she had screamed Shigeru's name as if he were her god. Her fingers had buried themselves in his lush dark chocolate locks, and pulled his head closer to her chest as ecstasy took her.

He had continued pounding into her tirelessly, ceaselessly even as her channel clamped down on his scorching member. Driving her to a higher level of bliss as he fucked her through her second orgasm and immediately into her third.

While she had still been caught up in the intensity of her euphoria, she had felt Shigeru drop soft kisses against her lips and eyelid, a striking contrast to how he had been aggressively ravishing her a moment ago.

When she came down just the slightest from her rapturous peak, he had wordlessly carried her to a nearby sofa.

She had whined pitifully as his pulsating length, now thoroughly coated in her juices, was pulled out of her oversensitized but still greedy lower lips.  Her folds had clenched painfully at the sudden loss of its treat.

Still overcome with pleasure, she hadn’t paid much attention as Shigeru had silently flipped her onto her front and bent her over the back of their plush loveseat. She had vaguely been aware as he had grasped her breasts and pressed himself against her backside, cock pillowed between her buttocks.

Despite her pleasure filled haze, she had been able to tell he was close to his own climax. His twitching shaft had told her has much even as he had dragged his cock across her folds, teasing at her sensitive clit.

Still panting, she had squealed as Shigeru entered her again without warning, plunging deep within her core. Stars had burst behind her eyes and more screams had escaped her lips as his fat cock found that special spot and continued pounding away at it.

Her own hips rocked against the dresser at the memory of his full length filling and stretching her. How he had savagely rammed his cock into her sopping, desperate channel, taking his pleasure from her receptive body.

With her breath coming out in short pants, she drove her fingers faster and deeper into herself as she got closer to coming.

Moaning, she imagined it was really her fiancé who was giving her pleasure. That it was really his throbbing member that being driven into rather than her own slim fingers.

She pictured Shigeru’s handsome face and his gorgeous emerald eyes, now at the brink of orgasmic bliss.

“Ah…” she started screaming, her core clamping down on her fingers. As she came her fiancé’s eyes shifted to a steel grey, and it was no longer Shigeru she was imagining pounding her to cloud nine.

“Ju-Jumin!”

Etymology

Soojin - Treasure, excellence and truth

Masami (雅美) - Elegant beauty

Ami - Korean reading of Masami (雅美)

Shigeru (茂) - Flourishing Luxury

And we continue on! It felt too right to end it here. Smut’s really hard to write.

Tagging: @winterforpolandandfrance, @manju-booty, @ravenhaired-mc, @sleepyfoxspirit, @saizoswifey, @melody-chii

[fanfictionconnectionwordpress]

How would the RFA + Minor Trio react if they found MC's suicide note, read it and then finds MC just as she is about to attempt suicide? This not because of them, but because of her, as she has been depressed and suicidal for a really long time, due to her past and family events. But she never told them about this because she always kept up this happy facade infront of them? Also, could it have a happy ending please?

***Intensity level 1000. This is gonna be quite the ask. Obviously this entire thing is a trigger warning, I don’t think I can make that any more clear than the ask itself. ~Let’s Connect! FFC***

If you are suicidal- Please seek professional help. There are lots of call centers and other resources to help you out there. Remember you are valuable~

Characterbreakdown: Good Ending Original Route Characters, Secret Ending 02 Saeran, VGood Ending, my version of Vanderwood as seen in my VanderwoodBackstory Fanfiction 

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Vanderwood:

He’s so perceptive that he has always suspected there was something wrong, but upon finding the note his brain is in overdrive.

Vanderwood actually has to completely shut himself down mentally in order to function, because he has to work logically or there’s no way his tracking skills are going to do him any good.

Full on agent mode, it takes him only a few minutes to find you in the attic with one of his weapons.

“Baby, hey…” His voice almost spooked you, especially since it’s a bit choked with tears, agent mode wearing off so fast it’s almost unbelievable.

Vanderwood talks you into handing over the weapon and then wraps you up in his arms, insisting on taking you to the hospital where you’ll get the professional care you need.

He’s with you constantly through your inpatient treatment, sleeping in the chair in your room, because no way is he letting you out of his sight.

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Jumin:

His immediate reaction is to call his bodyguards to search the entire building of the penthouse. It’s a big place and there’s lots of area to hide in.

When he gets the call that you’ve been found on the roof, he is there immediately, already on the phone with the hospital to have you admitted for urgent care.

You’re cowering away from the guards, almost ready to jump when Jumin arrives, and he just holds his hand out to you with this pained look on his face. ‘Come with me, MC…please don’t do this.’

Unfortunately, the shock and stress is too much, but a guard manages to grab you before you pass out.

When you wake up in the hospital, your shoulder is dislocated, but you’re alive.

Jumin is sitting at the edge of your bed, hands folded under his mouth before he wakes up upon you shifting in the bed. ‘MC!’

It’s unusual to see him with so much worry and tension plainly visible on his face.

The man will not stop stroking your hair, and no expense is spared in getting you the best professionals to treat you.

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Yoosung:

He spends at least a solid minute staring at the note in his hands before it fully processes in his head.

He’s going to lose the person who means the most to him again.

Yoosung starts running frantically through the house, opening doors like a madman before he finds you and just runs at you pulling you into his arms.

Unfortunately for him, that means he ends up getting a little bit acidentally stabbed, which makes you start freaking out because that was not part of the plan.

Sweet Yoobby just winces and keeps holding you as you’re dialing for emergency services. 'It’s okay, precious girl; as long as you’re okay.’

You’re both gonna be in the hospital for a bit, but on the bright side he managed to save you and he calls the scar he earns his 'badge of love.’

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V:

Not again. Rika had never made good on her threats, but this note…

V found you in the bedroom with a menagerie of bottles which he hoped the contents of had yet to be consumed.

'Darling…come for a walk with me.’ He knew better now than to try to convince you that everything was fine or you’d feel better in the morning or that, 'Our love can defeat anything.’

He managed to convince you to come along, but the walk you took was a walk to the hospital where he enlisted his childhood friend Jumin’s help in getting you the best of care.

V was careful in his presence, being near to you and supporting you, but trying not to get poetic or artistic about your pain and speaking very little so as to let your doctors do their work without much interference.

This way you could get the help you truly deserved and not his regurgitated poetry.

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Jaehee:

This couldn’t possibly be real, just earlier you had been laughing with the customers, but Jaehee was learned in a number of subjects thanks to the many research projects she’d been involved with at C&R and she knew better than to treat the note on her desk flippantly.

Thankfully, she was in good shape, casting off her shoes so that she could run along the streets to find you not far from the motorway.

Jaehee is a lot stronger than she looks judo queen, and she grabs you and just will not let go no matter how you struggle as tears are streaming down both of your faces.

'I won’t let you do this, MC!’

Once you seem to have worn yourself out, she immediately takes you to a hospital, pleading her former boss to assist her, which he does 'for the good of the RFA.’despite the grudge he’d built up.

It’s a blow to her ego, but that doesn’t really matter, considering the circumstances, she’s just happy you’re getting the care you need

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Zen:

Thank God he reads quickly, because it gave him the precious time he needed to find you already bleeding in the bathroom, immediately calling emergency from his phone and then holding you.

‘C'mon, princess, let’s escape from the dragon and make our way back to our kingdom.’

He’s started mumbling sweet romantic nothings to you at this point, not just to comfort you as you meekly cry, but also to comfort himself because he doesn’t know what else to do.

Zen will blame himself for always being away from the apartment working on his career and takes a leave of absence from the stage to help you in your recovery, even though it’s hard on him with the call of the stage embedded in his mind.

He will eventually rejoin the stage and you will rejoin society after the hospital releases you much healthier than when you went in.

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Seven:

Our tomato boy had always thought your joking around was just a facet of your personality, perhaps in denial that it was a similar coping mechanism to his own, but it was blatantly obvious now.

Seven yelled out the command to shut down the robo dog’s attack command, having no idea how you’d gotten a hold of that remote in the first place or why you would choose such a method.

He can’t help himself from making a joke about burnt toast and overcooked meat thanks to his own coping method, as tactless as it is, as he wraps you up in his arms with this look of extreme pain on his face that you’d only seen on his face when his brother had been in recovery.

Thankfully, Seven doesn’t try to be your doctor the way he did with his brother.

He brings a multitude of toys and gadgets though, making so many jokes and trying so hard to make your time there not seem so bleak that you eventually have to be the one to tell him to relax and let up before he drives himself into some joke induced coma.

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Saeran:

Reading thoughts similar to what had been his own once upon a time is like looking into the worst possible mirror. How could he not have noticed?

Saeran tries to push himself into that head-space that he’d long ago left behind, despite the tremendous headache it’s giving him.

It helps him think through where you could be and what you could be doing, bringing down the list of potential hiding places in his brother’s massive bunker significantly.

His headache is almost causing his vision to blur by the time he finds you, which causes his vision to blur from tears as he tries his best to hold you up so that the rope doesn’t constrict your airway.

It’s Seven who finds you, that strange and odd connection he has to his twin leading him straight to you in his own panic and calling the emergency services.

The fortunate news is Saeran got to you quickly enough and you hadn’t snapped anything when you stepped off the chair.

It doesn’t take long for doctors to realize that Saeran is in need of increasing his own therapy visits again with the way he paces around and holds his head, muttering to himself in your hospital room as you sleep.

Thankfully, the RFA has such good access to professional resources so that you’re able to go through recovery together.

Even if you have to be separated for a time, it’s for the best, in order to be the best self you can be to keep from causing relapses in behavior back and forth in a vicious cycle between the two of you.

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I Am Valid Too - Mystic Messenger Fic

Just one chapter of a 2 chapter fic. Inspired from a fan animation, The Moon Rises by Duo Cartoonist. All about feeling under appreciated. Enjoy I guess.

Three years had passed. Three entire years since saving Saeran and bringing Mint Eye down to the ground. Wasn’t exactly an easy task, I mean dismantling everything Rika had done, even with the help of Jumin, was extremely difficult. It plastered the news for months, so many followers who needed mental and physical help once we found them. Finding them was another issue in itself. But we never gave up. I had stuck by Saeyoung faithfully, despite also trying to juggle Searan’s rehabilitation from the drugs that were pumped into him, and his mental health. But, we got there, together. Saeran had made huge progress, he still had night terrors from time to time, but he could cope with them mostly on his own now. Mint Eye was no more, and the media had passed over it completely, Jumins influence...such a blessing! It was like it had never existed. Life was beginning to become what the average person would call it, normal.

I had been living with Saeyoung and Saeran for just under three years. Saeyoung suggested that I moved in when we both realised Saeran calmed down much quicker after attacks with me around. It certainly was a challenge to learn how to live with both of them, but we made it work. Saeran became a valuable member of the RFA, he even helped Yoosung with his own mental struggles since Rika was sent away for help of her own. She was easily going to be away for another good few years before the hospital even began to debate letting her come back. We were even planning new charity parties, myself being the one who is basically in charge of everything. From guests, to venue, all down to my final word. My pride had grown with each party we held. More guests attended, even more VIP guests began asking for invites. Each one a great success. My confidence had even been given a boost.

Life was...good. Calm. Happy. Until my own mental health began creeping into it’s own descent.

It started off small. Little comments which drew my attention, but I thought nothing off at first. It escalated to certain messages I had sent in the group chat being ignored, changes of subject. Again, I thought nothing of it. I mean, it could have all been in my head, and it probably was! It wasn’t until I realised the credit of the parties were being aimed at Saeyoung. Every success we had, every new VIP guest added to the list, every large donation...all thanks to Saeyoung. It stung. I was doing hard work too. Wasn’t I? Maybe I just needed to work harder.

I started to seriously notice it at one of post party drinks.

“Another successful party!” Zen said, raising his glass before downing his beer.

“I agree, the decision to change to a bigger venue was an excellent idea” Jumin said, turning to Saeyoung “Fantastic idea”

He was getting credit again?

“Ah well, it wasn’t just...” Saeyoung started.

“It’s big enough to keep expanding too, you’ll need to keep up with all that security” Jaehee pitched in.

They were all talking to Saeyoung. Not me. Sure, he was the face of things, being on the phone and laptop a lot, my messages on the chat were decreasing rapidly. I was hardly on it anymore. Saeyoung had taken it upon himself to tell the others about the progress being made, updating constantly with every decision made. I was almost being shoved into the background. I understood I wasn’t posting as much, then sure, naturally people do turn to those who are present, but...surely they knew the amount of effort I went through to make these parties happen.

“I’m sure I’ll be able to keep pace” Saeyoung smiled at Jaehee.

They laughed, joked, my presence not even registered. They had gotten bored of me. They must have.

A few days later, I felt as if I had shifted the horrible, looming feeling by crying it all out. How wrong was I? After pulling another all nighter in order to reply to all 451 email enquiries, and listening to all the voicemails on the RFA mobile, I was so ready for my bed. I passed Saeyoung’s work room and popped my head in. I may have been feeling down, but that didn’t mean I felt like ignoring the people I cared about. Even if they seemed to not care anymore.

“I’m gonna get some sleep, do you want any coffee before I go to bed?” I asked.

“No thanks, don’t forget the party tomorrow so don’t sleep too long” he replied. Of course I knew there was a party. This was an extremely special, one off, important party for a specific charity. I had just spent the entire night tying up loose ends. I’d hardly forget it.

I hummed a reply, so tired I couldn’t articulate a reply.

I didn’t sleep too much, I was awake and ready a good few hours before the party to help Jaehee set up. I knew for a fact Jaehee was under appreciated by Jumin, so I thought I’d open up to her a little about my feelings.

“Jaehee? How you cope with feeling...well under appreciated?” Thought I’d may as well just go straight in there.

“Huh? I don’t think I’ve truly felt it, to be honest, sure Mr Han glances over my hard work most of the time, however, he does show his appreciation very now and then” she explained.

“Ah, ok, thanks” she wasn’t going to be much help.

It wasn’t until the party that evening that my brain finally cracked. The guests just kept coming and coming. A few had come up to me and thanked me for their invite and tending to their needs. It felt good, and I smiled genuinely for the first time in a week. However, yet again, most guests went up to Saeyoung, shaking his hand, congratulating him on all he’s done. Not just for the party, but for his brother too. News spread fast and didn’t die down, not when it was that deep and twisted a story. These people lived on drama. They wouldn’t let it go for another few years yet.

But...had I not done anything? Was everything I had done for him and Saeran for nought? Was it all pointless? I thought my hard work was paying off, that I deserved a bit of credit for it. I knew the security of all of the guests was extremely important, I got that, 100%, but...that wasn’t everything, was it? Since I seemed to be becoming a shadow, I decided to hide there, in a corner away from everyone.

“He sure likes the spotlight” Saeran said.

“Course, he’s a show off, what do you expect?” I replied, not even shocked by his sudden presence. His voice almost like music to my ears, soothing to me.

“True, how you feeling?” He asked.

“Huh?”

“He’s getting a lot of the attention, but I’ve noticed you being shoved further and further back” he explained, tears beginning to form in my eyes, stinging slightly. He’d noticed too? The stinging of the tears kept building until they stopped when he took my hand “just know that I will forever appreciate what you did for me, please, even in your darkest times, never forget that”

I gently wiped my eyes, the tears fading and nodded. His hand released my own.

“And I don’t think he’s doing it on purpose” he said, looking to his brother.

Sure. Totally. Yeah, not loving all the attention as he smiled and laughed with everyone surrounding him, admiring him, loving him. Did I not deserve some love and admiration too? Just because I worked a lot on my own and in the dark, like he did years ago, didn’t mean my work was the lesser light.

“Saeran, you’re looking well, who’s the lovely lady?” A guest came up to us.

Saeran introduced me politely, but warily.

“I’m sure you remember emailing her” Saeran said plainly.

“Oh! You do the emails? Ah I thought Saeyoung did, I mean, he does it so well! You sure she deals with them?”

Saeran was about to say something I knew he’d regret, so I stopped him.

“It wasn’t me, it was Saeyoung, enjoy the rest of the party!” I grinned as best I could until he left.

“Why did you do that?” He asked.

“Best not damage Saeyoungs good name” I said simply.

No. I was done. I did deserve some praise.

I said goodbye to Saeran, saying I was turning in early. When I got back to the bunker I began my work. Not for a party though. No. This time, Saeyoung would be in the dark, not me. I’d waited long enough now. It was my time to shine. And Saeyoung would pay.

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Mystic Messenger : Day 6 ~ V Walkthrough (FULL ANSWERS)

I worked all alone - I cheked each answers ~ Please be considerate.

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If you are on phone, please setting the page to be seen in the computer version! On the phone, the answers are sometimes unaligned and it can confuse you…

In order to not bother and annoy my followers who don’t play this game by this looong post, I’ll put a seperate line. Click to see.

 01:17 : 707 Cyber News [707, Jaehee]

 Hello^^; (nothing)

You didn’t recognize me because you had too much work? T-T (707)

Yes… (nothing)

My head spins whenever I think about it;; (nothing)

Umm…how’s the messenger security? (V)

You’re getting your meals on time, aren’t you? (707)

I know you’ll win, Seven! (707)

This hacker won’t give up… (Unknown)

Looks like you got enough pop for joking around. (nothing)

You need a right too ! (nothing)

Who made them?;;; (nothing)

Wow, no kidding! You made them for fun, but they’re impressive! (nothing)

Daffodils. (nothing)

707BunnygirlLoveU (707)

Blank puzzles. (V)

Jaehee… You’re still up late… (Jaehee)

Should I start greeting you with binary numbers ? 0101111011 (707)

Why don’t we ask her about the coordinates password? (nothing)

You work all day and night, Jaehee T-T (Jaehee)

Coffee. (Jaehee)

Cats. (Jumin)

The sun. (V)

Aren’t you… awkward with V, Jaehee? (nothing)

Don’t you think it’d be something related to Rika? (nothing)

Mint color? (nothing)

Rainbow color?  (nothing)

Cobalt blue? (nothing)

V has mint-colored eyes! (V)

It kind of sounds random! (nothing)

I don’t think Rika is the provocative type…; (nothing)

My eyes are provocative too lol (nothing)

Hmmm… That sounds worth a try. (nothing)

Do you think V’s heart also has 16-fold locks? (V)

So how long does it take? (nothing)

Don’t you think it’s better to get the coordinates after a week, like V said? (V)

What will happen if you get the coordinates for this place faster than expected…? (V)

Bye bye (nothing)

I’ll see you again… (nothing)

Who is it? (nothing)

That’s nice of him T-T (Jaehee)

Ok… Coud you ask him to send me an email? (nothing + answer to the email)

He might be a fraud mocking Christmas! I decline! (nothing)

He seems to have a lot of hobbies. (nothing)

You two are in a carefully calculated contract relationship… Didn’t you know ? Your relationship is made of money. (nothing)

It will! Cheer up, Jaehee. (Jaehee)

It’s an order. So you must do it T-T (nothing)

 02:43 : V’s Concern [V]

 There was something I’ve been working on… (nothing)

I can’t sleep. I feel uneasy… (nothing)

I’m lonely… (nothing but I think you will really like his answer on this one :D)

I heard she’s really busy. Don’t you think you’re making her even busier? (V…)

I think he’s trying to decrypt the coordinates as fast as he can. (V)

Do the mint-colored eyes mean something? (V)

You sound like you’re hiding something again, V. (V…)

I don’t think getting the right coordinates is going to be easy. (V)

What is it? Can’t you tell me? (V…)

So there’s something is this place that Luciel must not find out. (V…)

V, you shouldn’t let yourself get in danger… That might be the best way for you.  (V)

Yes? (nothing)

Hmm? (nothing but at this one, he laughs 😉)

Actually, I’m a little bored since they’re ignoring me. (V)

I’m alright… It’s rather quiet here. (nothing)

I’m already anxious enough. And that’s more than uncomfortable enough… (V…)

Thanks, but I’m not really sure if you changed. (V…)

You turned a little brighter thanks to me, didn’t you?^^ (V)

Do you think I’m attractive, V? (V)

I don’t think this is really the time for that… (V…)

I’m going to stay awake just a little bit more. (nothing)

Yes… I should. (nothing but better answer)

 Visual Novel V

07:55 : Changes Jumin Sees [Jumin, Jaehee]

 It’s an energetic and strong morning. (nothing)

It’s a beautiful morning ! (nothing – better answer)

Pictures! Let me see them! (Jumin + CG)

I hear a lot of metaphors. You sound rather unfamiliar. (nothing)

So simply put…your cat stretched? (nothing)

V is still looking for Rika’s traces. It breaks my heart. (V)

Maybe it doesn’t mean anything. (nothing)

Jaehee! You’re here so early. (nothing)

When do you go to bed, Jaehee? ;;; (Jaehee)

So how’s the intelligence unit going? (Jumin)

She’s right. You should go to work! (Jaehee)

I think you could solve everything if you know where I am, Jumin… (Jumin)

Ididn’t! (nothing but god, their answers are priceless XD)

I did think that I might find something fun. (nothing)

And don’t forget V! You can also protect him!  (V)

In a bad way? (nothing)

In a good way? (nothing)

In a not-so-good way? (nothing)

V is so stubborn. (V…)

I think V is slowly approaching me because my heart is wide open for him. (V)

I hope V will take courage and break his wall himself! (V)

To be honest, I feel so frustrated whenever I talk them! (V…)

What? Why? (nothing)

Why don’t you go there yourself?  (nothing)

Don’t you think he might have seen them already? (nothing)

Jaehee, please make sure V doesn’t see those pictures. (V)

Aren’t you going to work…? (Jaehee)

Bye… (nothing)

But you can’t send anyone ele to V’s home T-T (V)

You should copy yourself and let the clone do the job. (nothing)

He’ll give a new task once this one is finished, won’t he? Lol (nothing)

Let’s take care of them one by one ! (Jaehee)

Why don’t you have a cup of morning coffee? (Jaehee)

That’s the time when you want to just let go of everything and run away. (V)

Long is the way of the head of the intelligence unit… (Jumin)

Good luck today, Jaehee ! (Jaehee)

 10:00 : Don’t Want to be Hated  [Ray]

 Ray, are you still attacking the RFA? (nothing)

Ray, please let me out of there ! (V)

Are you the one who sent those images to the RFA? (V)

Why do you keep doing this? (V)

It looks like nothing but a malicious delivery… (V)

So you’re saying V is not trustworthy? (V…)

Actually, I think it’s reckless that he’s coming to save me all by himself. (V…)

Right now I am a hostage… (V)

They’ll come to save me if I lose contact by force. (V)

Wouldn’t it help you if I keep contacting the RFA? (V…)

Now that I listen to you… I’m not so sure. (Unknown)

I’ll trust V. (V)

Show me that you truly repent. (Unknown)

Don’t touch the RFA anymore. And please let me go. (V)

I’ll think about it if you show me that you’re in torment.  (Unknown… God he is so desperate…it’s so painful...)

Please don’t torment Seven too much… (707)

Where did you learn to hack?  (Unknown)

I hope it helps to tell them the truth. (Unknown)

Are you going to send something worse than images? (V)

I like you too. (Unknown)

I… like someone else. (V)

How? (Unknown)

Are you going to make me take that drug? (V)

Why do you hate V so much? (Unknown)

I don’t believe you… (V)

I think something bad will happen if I see her. (V)

Who is this savior? (Unknown)

What preparations? (nothing)

What does she have to do with V ?  (nothing)

You will come to see me…right? (Unknown)

When will you let me out of here? (V)

 12:33: Need some Fresh Air [707, Yoosung]

 About time to gaze at the sun, worrying about V… (V)

About time to get hungry. (nothing)

About time to play with a cat. (707)

Your body rhythms turn irregular, which could cause obesity or imbalance of hormones in the future, and.. (Jumin)

What should I do, God7?! (707)

You’re gonna work in secret with the intelligence unit!? (nothing)

Is something wrong? (nothing)

Welcome, Yoosung! Are you at school? (nothing)

I wanna get some air on your car, Seven (nothing)

I think you should stay under Zen’s protection. (Zen)

You should. Be brave ! (Yoosung)

Me, me! Me too! (Unknown)

Yoosung..why would you go there…? (V)

He can take the trunk! (Yoosung)                                                  

…Good for you, Jaehee. (707)

I think I’m reading a conversation between thieves or something.. (707)

Stop suspecting V, Yoosung T-T (V)

Play LOLOL lol (Yoosung)

What abobut Zen ? (Zen)

Whoa…nostalgia. (Zen)

I wonder what Zen does with that computer. (nothing)

What is that? Lolol (707)

Why won’t he get a new one? (Zen)

He should keep it well until he donates it to museum… (707)

I wish I could help Zen somehow… (Zen)

I think I know now how precious is my computer. (707)

I’d like to protect Zen’s vintage and original aspects. (nothing)

Ok… there’s no other choice. (707 + email)

I also feel like I’m sending emails just for fun. (nothing)

We are going to have the party! The RFA party will be held as planned! (nothing)

I think Zen would use that to listen to music… (Zen)

Walkingman was made in the same era a Zen’s computer… (nothing)

What’s that? (nothing)

Zen must be so patient. (Zen)

I think we should first help Zen before we hold a charity party. (707)

I think this is a good time for a donation…. (Zen)

Home – sweet home – (Yoosung)

What kind of nagging does he give? (nothing)

I think you should call him mom. (nothing)

I wish LOLOL would work on phones… (nothing)

You should go to an internet café (nothing)

You said you’re too saced to go out hehehe

Please be careful of kidnappers! (V)

Bye! (nothing)

 Visual Novel Jaehee

 14 :42 : Passion Red [Jaehee, Zen]

 Jaehee, is the intelligence unit all set ? (nothing)

Jaehee, are you on your way? (nothing)

I think Jumin made a good choice. (Jumin)

But I think V will be distressed when he sees those pictures… (V)

He’s not going to sneak into V’s house, is he? (V)

He sad, he’s going to get some air- (707)

Hmm… he seems to be up to something. (V)

What is his car like? (nothing)

Ask him! (nothing)

I wonder what kind of car V owns. (V)

Seven…he’s so cool! (707)

I’d like to go on a drive with V… (V)

I think Seven would make a better model. (707)

Here comes devastatingly handsome man. (Zen)

Hi, Zen. (nothing)

Lucky you, Jaehee T-T (Jaehee)

Zen, do you know how to drive? (Zen)

I thought of V! (V)

Jaehee said you’ll make a fabulous car model lol (Jaehee)

It’s the graceful stability that dances between speeding and slowing! (Zen)

It would feel like being carried in a giant can. (nothing)

Then I’d like to try Jumin’s car lol (Jumin)

I don’t really like cars. (nothingà

I wanna try Seven’s car- it’s packed with speed.  (V)

No no you should first get a new computer… (nothingà

Didn’t anyone ever tell you that you’ll never get to keep a lot of money if you rend a lot? (nothing)

Just do it. Do it today!  (nothing)

I think you should throw it into a junk shop. (nothing)

What? It looked pretty useful lol (Zen)

You should try installing LOLOL. (Yoosung)

What can you possibly do with that computer? (nothing)

Oh no… Not the blue screen… (nothing)

What’s your OS ? (nothing)

If you have a smartphone then there’s no worry^^ (nothing)

Sniffle… I should’ve given you my old laptop instead of throwing it away T-T (nothing)

Yep…………. (nothing)

Do you have a Walkingman? (nothing)

You do have TV, don’t you? (nothing)

I wonder what kind of pictures V got. I’m starting to get worried. (V)

Zen, you didn’t get one, did you? (Zen)

I wonder what V’s home is like…. (V)

Seven is quite a driver, isn’t he? (707)

I don’t think he does lol (Zen)

I’m sure he does more than Jumin does lol (nothing)

Rough is the life or an agent… (707)

I’m sure your move well-built, Zen! You work out every day! (Zen)

See you soon. (nothing)

Don’t be so stressed out! Have fun! (Zen)

Do you think V is good with computers? (V)

Agreed!! I can’t believe he owns Hidowns95 T^T (nothing)

Goodbye. (nothing)

Have a safe trip! Please watch Seven so he doesn’t break into V’s house! (nothing)

 Visual novel :

 Who is it? (nothing)

…What brings you here? (nothing)

How were you doing, Ray? (nothing)

Are we going to meet her? (nothing)

I don’t want to see her… (nothing)

Ray? (nothing)

What is this? (nothing)

A mask…? (nothing)

Hello. (nothing)

But I don’t want to. (nothing)

You won’t stop me from using the messenger, will you? (nothing)

Who are you? (nothing)

What’s your name? (nothing)

 16:19 : Yoosung’s Heaven [Yoosung, Jumin]

 Yoosung, how are your games going so far? (Yoosung)

Yoosung, did you have dinner yet? (Zen)

Yes I did (nothing)

Not yet! (nothing)

Cup boodle is bad for your health! Especially for your skin! (Zen)

You’re at an internet café, so you should get a cup noodle ! lol (Yoosung)

Arobot. Wow, that’s future right there. (nothing)

You’ve found peace. (Yoosung)

Jumin, have you ever had a cup noodle? (nothing)

Welcome, Jumin. (nothing)

Is it because Jaehee isn’t with you right now? (Jaehee)

She still hasn’t reported back to you? I thought that’s something unacceptable at C&R!! (nothing)

Where did she place the document? (Jumin)

You talked about work even in chat rooms? T-T (Jaehee)

It sounds like there are other manuals too… Lol (nothing)

Jaehee… I wonder when she can return home tonight… (nothing)

I’m not sure if there’s anything suspicious waiting… But I’m curious too. (V…)

Yoosung, your suspicion is just endless… Can’t you trust V for just a little? T-T (V)

I don’t think there’s anything I’ve done here… (nothing)

Oh… Thank you for the compliment! (V and Yoosung)

Yes… V will come to save me. (V)

But he’s still hiding something. (V…)

I hope yo’ud take more action instead of blaming V! (Jumin and V)

Yoosung is suspicious because V made secrets. (V…)

Umm…You mean those scary people? (nothing)

Good idea! Now that’s something only you can do. (Yoosung)

Make sure you keep your voice straight. (nothing)

Good luck! (nothing)

Get black neab noodles (nothing)

I think this sounds all very strang to you, Jumin (nothing)

A vending machine robot for cup noodles? (nothing)

A person who’s been staying there for more than 20 days per month? (nothing)

Let’s invite him! And let’s place computers at the party! (nothing + email)

So he must have been away from the bath for 20 days. I refuse. (nothing)

Good luck! (nothing)

Bye.  (nothing)

How’s the intelligence unit going? (nothing)

Tell me about it. So I’m assuming she still hasn’t reported to you. (nothing)

Are you leaving? (nothing)

What’s the menu? (nothing)

  Visual Novel 707

18:23 : Heading Towards 2020 [Zen, 707]

 Are you back from a rehearsal, Zen? (nothing)

Zen, how was your exercise?  (Zen)

Yes, there’s nothing like a shower after exercise! (Zen)

I wish I could take wings too lol (707)

I want to lie down and chug potato chips until early morning… (nothing)

If I see your silhouette in the mirror in the middle of our exercise session… (Zen)

You’re such a hard worker! That’s so cool ! (nothing)

We’ll get to hear lots of helpful tips on a die! Great! (nothing + email)

I’m not really interested in weight loss or gain hehe (nothing)

Yeah yeah! (707)

Welcome  (nothing)

She said that in the previous chat room! (nothing)

Zen, I think you’re addicted to exercise… (nothing)

Is V fit too? +_+ (V)

So you get to go outside more often than stay at your desk? (707)

I think you need to have your seriousness on nif you’re going to advise him on computers. (707)

No! You’re going to take that lovely computer away from Zen, aren’t you? ! (Zen)

Is that for Zen? (Zen)

Looks awesome… (707)

The lastest model runs on Hinwdows 7? (nothing)

So how much is it? (nothing)

Don’t you think we should get him THE latest model? (nothing)

I don’t think it’s really a good laptop. (nothing)

Do you have 36 months plan with no interest? (707)

You’re not giving him a laptop you’ve been using, are you? If it’s a 5 years old, its lifespan is almost over… (Zen)

Sniff…sniff… I smell trouble… (Zen)

Wow ! Seriously ? That’s unbelievable! (707)

… May God7 watch over you. (707)

When? (Zen)

I think this time he relaly means it! (707)

Nothing is for free in this world. (Zen)

By the way, Seven. How did your trip to V’s house go? (707)

Zen, you should say farewell to your computer. (Zen)

Why not keep that computer? (Zen)

He said he needs your computer to work on something. (707)

Back up! Back them up! (nothing)

You can actually see photos with that computer?  (nothing)

Oh, two in a row? Who is it now? (nothing)

We are having a party, right?  (nothing)

Hmm… but don’t you think you need some distance from the other party? (V)

Same here ! I ahte relationships with secrets! (Zen)

I think it’s going to be difficult to check if he’s at the party or not… (nothing)

Though I’d like to know that acquaintance of your acquaintance… Alright; Let’s invite him. (nothing + answer to the email)

Ok see ya! (nothing)

So long… 389. (nothing)

 Visual Novel Mode V

20:00 : Doubtful Family [Jaehee, Yoosung]

 In all honesty, there are a lot of V’s answers, and this time, it’s not like there is a line between one (V…) and a good one (V) really definite, so I preferred to not take side by putting (V…)  

 I moved to somewhere else… But I’m fine. (V)

Nothing in particular. What about you? (Jaehee)

I wouldn’t mint lol (nothing)

No, I would���ve done the same thing. (nothing)

Does it look like V returns home often? (Unknown)

Was there something in V’s mailbox? (V)

Welcome! (nothing)

Did you call your aunt? (nothing)

Why would the sender send such things to V? (Unknown)

What was in it? (V)

Do you think he missed Rika? (V)

… Do you think V will love Rika forever? (V)

Did you talk to your aunt? (Yoosung)

You’re not suspecting V again, are you? (V)

Does Rika have ots of belongings? (nothing)

Why would she tell you to take Rika’s stuff? (nothing)

And why would your aunt say that? (nothing)

Don’t t you think they’re too sad to admit she’s dead? (nothing)

It’s so sad but it looks like something is definitely wrong. (V)

Maybe Rika is really alive. They’re her parents, after all.  (V)

And you’ve been blaming V all this time with no idea about this… (V…)

Do you think what we know about Rika is what she really is? (V)

But I think it’s strange Rika never talked about her parents.. (V)

They’re basically strangers, don’t you think? (V)

It looks like Rika’s parents don’t know her very well. (nothing)

But they’re still her parents. Maybe it’s true to some extent. (nothing)

I wonder what Rika was like when she was with her parents. (V)

This isn’t your fault… (Yoosung)

V didn’t add to Rika’s trouble, did he? (V…)

Perhaps that’s why she made such a dire choice. (V)

I think it’s time to let go of Rika (Yoosung)

You shouldn’t look for someone to blame. Instead, you should start offering condolence to Rika with your heart. (V)

But whether we can trust what V discovered is a whole different question. (V…)

From now on let’s trust V together. (V)

If you’re stressed out, you might want to take a break. Don’t think about anything else. (Yoosung)

But it’s good that now we know something about Rika. (V)

I’m fine… I met someone new, so I’m a little nervous. But I’m fine! I’ll tell you if there’s danger. (V)

I met someone new, so I think I have to stay alert for a while. (V..)

I hope you take a break! Everything will be ok! (nothing)

See you again, Yoosung. (nothing)

Sometimes I hide my grief too… (nothing)

Grief belongs to the grieving. I don’t think there’s a need to reveal it. (V...)

Yes, if there’s anyone who needs my help, I’m willing to offer it.  (V)

Rika msut have had a tragic past. I’m starting to feel bad for her. (V..)

I think things would’ve been different if Rika was willing to show what she felt.  (V)

Alright. I was actually thinking about having some time to myself. (Jaehee)

I’m going to wait for V to contact me. (V)

 Visual Novel

 (no hearts given)

I’m thinking what this place is.

I’ve come simply to test a game. But now it feels like I’m caught in something terribly big.

You look like a weird person.

You look like a nice person.

You look like a scary  person.

Are you jealous of me?

Do you hate me?

Do you like me?

Why do you keep asking me questions?

What do you mean?

So why don’t your answers to your questions?

V will come to save me…

But I like Ray’s method.

I can feel my heart fluttering.

I don’t believe you.

Yes, I’d like to, but not with you.

…Will I?

22:02 : His Idea of Family [Jumin, V]

 I think something’s gonna happen tonight… (nothing)

Welcome, Jumin. (nothing)

But that’s the proof Jaehee’s doing a good job- (Jaehee)

Jumin, what are you goind right now? (Jumin)

I’m sure he did. He’s her fiancé… (V)

Rika might have hidden their relationship. (V)

Maybe everything else other than her parents were fine. (nothing)

Well, you can’t change your familial environment…  (V)

What’s the matter? Are you anxious? (V)

Yep! I’m fine. (V)

How did Seven find out the coordinates? (707)

Umm, let’s not much in this chat room. (V)

How’s your cat doing, Jumin? (Jumin)

Since when did you live with your cat, Jumin? (nothing)

Did Rika avoid talking about her parents? (V)

So you were not interested in her parents? (V…)

You mean… Marriage of convenience!? (nothing)

Ugh…you’re right. (nothing)

But marriage happens between two people, not two families. (V)

I think what matters in looking at a person’s true essence is to figure out what kind of mind their actions or responses arise from. (Jumin)

So you loved her just the way she is. (V)

Why don’t we call an end to this conversation ? This is a personal story on Rika. (V)

Perhaps you two got engaged a little too fast. (V…)

What’s the matter? Is there something that bothers you? (V..)

But maybe it would’ve been better for V to see them. (V)

Is your security tight? (nothing)

Soon…? (nothing)

Bye, Jumin. (nothing)

Have a good time with Elizabeth the 3rd. (Jumin)

So Seven now knows where I am, right? (nothing)

Did you just call him? (nothing)

So exactly when are you coming? (V…)

Yes, I will. Don’t worry. (V)

 Visual Novel 707

 (no hearts given)

 Why are you so nice to me?

How old is this building?

Does Ray have lots of wounds too?

Do you have lots of wounds?

I’m worried about Ray.

Do you also alternate between fear and happiness within?

I want to know your real name.

What’s your relation to the RFA?

You’re not using me as a bait, are you?

I see.

V! This place isn’t safe. Run!

You are right.

I knew it. You are Rika.

You called her… Rika.

Rika… this is so confusing.

Good for him.

V!

23:11 : What happened to V?! [V, Yoosung, Ray, Jumin, Jaehee]

 Yoosung… please save me! (nothing)

V! Are you alright? (nothing)

 Visual Novel

 This place is weird. Everything seems against the laws.

Rika, you look anxious.

Why do you hate V so much?

What will happen to V now…?

A little.

Couldn’t you be the light?

Is that why you made this place?

He’ll think that it’s a noble sacrifice…..

What are you going to do with V?

What is it?

Day 7 | V is here.

[agirlandabear]

We were hiding from the storm in houses made of paper.

We were hiding from the storm in houses made of paper.  And how beautiful it was to think That the hurricane couldn't reach us If only we wished hard enough.

-Isaac Maul Tegin.

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MC snorts when Seven slips on a stick of butter and falls on his ass. They laugh until their bellies hurt while the pie they're baking amidst a culinary whirlwind sits in the oven. There are broken eggs on the floor and cream on the walls.

They're best friends.

Maybe it's because he's the one that came for them, the one that came to their rescue when everything seemed lost. Maybe because he's the second member of the RFA she ever met.

Maybe because he sees Jihyun as his father figure.

They're best friends and they're having pie for dinner because nobody can stop them and calories don't count when you bake them yourself.

Seven makes a show of being exhausted lying on the floor and MC picks up the dreadful butter stick with two fingers while making a disgusted face.

"I'm gonna go wash," he says with a sigh. And it's a good idea, because his buttered sole is the least of his problems, given that his hair is basically white with flour.

"Nobody forces you to go about barefoot, you know?"

"FREE THE TOE!"

She keeps on laughing while Seven jumps on one foot, disappearing towards the bathroom.

MC shakes her head with a smile and returns to the small kitchen, cleaning a bit of the mess, knowing Seven will get poor Vanderwood to do it if she doesn't.

It's fun, albeit quite chaotic, to spend some time with Seven when Jiyun is on a work trip. Ever since he started painting, people all over the world have offered him to exhibit his works in their galleries, and MC's job doesn't always allow her to accompany him.

She visits Seven in these occasions, they have sleepovers and paint each other's nails and braid friendship bracelets.

MC starts when she hears Seven screech.

She runs to the bathroom where the door is open, and sees him jumping about, a cockroach running in circles between his wet bare feet, making him shriek like a little girl.

"I WAS WASHING MY HAIR WHEN I FELT SOMETHING TICKLE MY FOOT!"

"STOMP IT!"

"ARE YOU CRAZY!? I'LL GET COCKROACH PUDDING BETWEEN MY TOES!"

"SEVEN, GROSS!"

"KILL IIIIIIIIIIIIT!"

MC charges into the bathroom screaming atop of her lungs and desperately tries to step on the roach while Seven keeps on hollering in terror.

CRACK.

"Ewwwwwww!"

MC pales lifting her foot and finding white and black smeared on her heel, causing her to scrunch her nose with the most disgusted expression she's ever made.

Seven sees her and suddenly bursts out laughing nonstop, with tears streaming down his face, wheezing and clapping like a stupid seal.

MC takes off her shoe and throws it at him.

After a brief war torturing each other with the remains of the cockroach, the two exit the bathroom while still laughing when they smell something burning in the kitchen.

MC dashes to the oven and opens it, finding the pie acceptably charred.

She cuts two slices and sits on the counter to blow on hers before taking the first delicious bite. Seven does the same.

"Hot, hot, hot!"

She giggles and looks up.

And her blood freezes in her veins.

Seven had flour in his hair. Flour he hadn't gotten to shake and wash completely before the roach thing happened.

He was wetting his hair with the help of the sink.

So the messy waves have been slightly tamed.

It doesn't look combed.

But the difference is enough.

On top of that, he had taken off his glasses to put his head under the water, leaving them hanging from the neck of his shirt.

And suddenly it hits her like an icy wave.

Like a ghost.

Her hands start shaking and she drops the slice of pie. Her best friend starts and looks up.

"Gah! Was it too hot?"

MC stammers something and even she doesn't know what she was trying to say.

A million seconds flash in front of her eyes, a voice and a touch and a scent, words. And a question.

A question.

And she's so stupid.

She's so blind…

She's dizzy and doesn't notice the moment when she stands and walks on weak legs to where her bag is.

She doesn't hear Seven's words, but somehow in the middle of the wave of nausea she manages to brush off his concern. Tell him she doesn't feel good. Tell him she forgot the stove on at home. Tell him she has work to do.

She blurts ten different excuses in a row and almost literally runs.

The door of her car slams when she launches herself into it. The headlights illuminate Seven's confused form at the driveway.

No.

Not Seven's.

"MC! What's wrong!?"

She speeds away from there.

Going home.

The home in the hills she shares with V…

She pulls over not five minutes away from her place, not able to hold her vomit anymore.

She throws herself out of the car and empties her stomach by the side of the road.

She sees her hands trembling through her blurry vision.

She's crying.

Again.

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MC doesn't sleep for the two following days. She doesn't answer her phone, not even to V. Not even to Seven.

Eventually one of the two becomes increasingly worried, and either sent by her fiancé or by his own choice, Seven knocks on the door.

It's a beautiful Sunday morning.

She'll never forget this day.

MC tries to ignore the insistent knocking, but Seven yells from the outside that he knows she's in there and that he'll spend the night outside if he has to.

So she drags herself to the door and opens it.

And she can't look at him in the eye.

He finds she hasn't been eating and scolds her for a good ten minutes while improvising some rice and sandwiches.

MC still doesn't look at him.

He tries to pry what's wrong for hours, but she won't bulge.

Seven calls Jaehee, and she drops by after work.

MC keeps saying she's fine, that nothing is wrong.

Jihyun calls Seven and asks him to put MC on the phone. He tells her he's heading back home immediately.

And it finally causes a reaction.

"No!"

"Wh-what? My love, what's wrong?"

"No, don't come home. Don't… I can't see you right now."

She can practically hear her fiancé's heart break.

Hours later she stands at the door, eyes still fixed on the ground, showing Seven out.

"Was it something I did?" He asks in a small, soft voice.

Her face snaps up and she gasps "No!" And she throws herself in his arms, holding him tighter than she ever did.

"Of course not! You've done nothing wrong, you idiot! I just… I… Seven… I need to sort my head out."

And he understands and is so relieved to know she doesn't hate him.

"Alright. Call me if you need anything."

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Jihyun should already have returned but he has postponed his trip back home because MC hasn't picked up the phone yet.

And something is burning inside of her.

Something is killing her because she promised herself she would never hurt him.

But like his puzzles, things she didn't know the meaning of have started to fit together somehow. One by one, falling in place.

She finds herself driving west almost every day, but she never quite reaches the destination the back of her mind screams at her to go to.

She can just bury all of this…

She can just pretend she doesn't see the new pieces of the puzzle that fit with the old ones she saw four years ago.

Back when…

…

But she knows she can't.

She knows things will never be the same.

She knows she'll never again have a calm night of sleep if she doesn't find out the truth.

She feels herself frozen in place.

With just one question in her mind.

She cries herself to sleep.

Zen calls every day, and Jumin comes to visit feeling terribly worried.

Nothing changes.

Two days later, Yoosung knocks on her door.

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He looks so much taller, and his hair is back to its natural dark brown, something MC will never get used to.

"Hey there. I thought of dropping by. Maybe we could watch a movie."

MC stares at him in absolute silence and doesn't move from the door.

"Umh… MC? Are you…?"

"When was the last time you saw Rika?"

The question is blunt and it throws him off balance. He blinks for a moment and frowns in confusion.

They don't talk about Rika.

She's a ghost for the others.

"… I visit every week."

"How is she?"

It's been four years since she was committed, and the whole RFA stopped asking about her within six months. V is the only exception. Yoosung updates him once a month in a handful of words: she's fine, still the same.

MC knows this, but she has gotten over it. She closed that chapter in her life and never looked back.

So why now…?

Yoosung repeats the ritual with V's fiancée.

"… She's fine… Still the same."

MC doesn't find this to be enough answer.

"Does she talk? Can she remember everything? Can she keep a conversation?"

Yoosung frowns.

"MC I don't unders-"

"Tell me!"

He starts almost scared.

"MC I don't know what's gotten into you, but you need help-"

He stops talking when he sees his friend's eyes get filled with tears.

"MC…"

"The only person who can help me right now… is Rika."

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"Are you sure you don't want me to go with you?"

"No, I… I'll be fine."

"Alright… I'll be outside."

"Yoosung?"

"Yeah?"

"Thank you."

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Rika's room is brightly illuminated by the afternoon sun.

The sheets are white and a bible rests next to the bed. By its side a plastic vase with fresh daffodils serves as the only decoration.

If it weren't for the bars in the window, maybe it could have looked like a normal room.

She doesn't acknowledge MC.

Instead, she keeps on looking up, outside the window.

A long silence passes between them.

"Rika-"

"It's beautiful, isn't it?"

MC takes a deep breath. She reminds herself she needs this woman's help a hundred times before opening her mouth.

"The sun?"

"Yes… I love staring directly at it. I love that my room welcomes its warmth."

"I… I guess that's good."

"I can't do it for long, though. It hurts my eyes and blinds me for a short moment. So I have to be careful."

She turns away from the window, her pupils extremely contracted, still recovering from gazing at the burning orb.

"What do you want?"

"I'm here to… Ask you something."

Rika giggles softly to herself.

"Isn't that ironic? I'm the villain, but you're the one that only visits an old friend when you need something?"

"Please, Rika. This is serious."

"Is it about something he did? Something he didn't do? Did you come to ask me how to survive his perfect, scorching light?"

"No. No, I didn't come to talk about Jihyun, and I'd appreciate it if we didn't mention him."

"Oh? Even now you're sheltering him? My, my. What a lucky man… Well, then. If you haven't come to talk to me about V, then what do you want?"

MC holds her breath. She know she's come to ask this question, but now she simply can't voice it.

This is it.

This is the answer that can make everything fall apart.

And as she watches Rika observe her, she notices the other woman already knows.

Suddenly MC finds herself speeding towards a collision she can't avoid.

So she just closes her eyes and lets the words roll off from her tongue.

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Jihyun has returned home.

He finds dust on the dining table and all the lights out.

And his feet move him forward, to the bedroom. Their bedroom, where they made love for the first time, where they spent countless hours holding each other close between the sheets, where he proposed…

He finds MC hugging her own legs, sitting on the blankets, and somehow it disturbs him.

Somehow he knows he should flee this house, but he can't.

"Darling… I'm home… I'm back…. I-I missed you…"

MC's face contorts in absolute pain and she hides it between her knees.

"D-darling? What is it? What's been going on…?"

She shakes her head softly.

V sits on the bed and reaches forward to touch her. To hold her.

"I went to see Rika," she says, her voice muffled. And he stops dead in his tracks.

When he says nothing, she continues.

"I asked Yoosung not to tell you."

"Ah… I'm not against it, but… it's been so many years. Why did you?"

"I had a question to ask her."

"A… A question?"

MC sniffles and hugs herself tighter.

"Dear… Love, please, tell me-"

"Have you ever lied to me, Jihyun?"

He stops talking.

She raises her head and glares at him, perfectly aware of the answer.

"Have you? Have you ever lied to me?"

He swallows thickly.

"What is this about, MC? Please, tell me. Please, let's fix this."

"Four years, V… How could you do something like that? What kind of person-? How can you sleep at night!?"

"MC, please calm down. Please, let me fix this. Please."

The tears fall freely from her eyes and she wipes them furiously with the heel of her hand.

"No, you can't fix this… It's too late… It's too late now, Jihyun… God… God, how could you…"

His eyes are misty now as well. "No, please. I know it's not too late. Please, I…"

She angrily brings out her phone, the screen glaring at him in the darkness.

The date is of over a thousand days ago. How has she managed to find this particular conversation, he doesn't know. But it must have taken her hours or days.

Her jaw clenches tightly.

"He asked you."

V suddenly realizes everything is crashing down on him.

"He asked you, Jihyun! And you lied to his face!"

Two letters.

"It's been four years, V! You didn't find a moment to tell the truth in four years!"

All it took was two letters.

Her voice becomes a strangled whisper.

"His brother has been dead for four years! And he doesn't know!"

The world ends.

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MC hides her face in her hands. Not a sound has been spoken for the last two hours.

The first words are like venom.

"Rika says Seven visited almost daily for a year and stopped two months ago… But she said she didn't tell him."

V sniffs, his hand tight on his mouth, his tears falling.

"He'll find out any second now… It won't be hard… If he hasn't, it's because he suspects it and is avoiding confirmation…"

"God…"

"You're like a father to him, Jihyun… He'll lose his brother and his father all at once…"

He trembles and for the first time in many years…

He wishes he would just stop breathing.

"If there was any hope he found support in his friends to push through it, you've taken it from him…"

MC sobs into her hands.

"He won't even be able to hold a funeral for him…"

V's voice is broken and weak.

"P-please… Don't tell him."

"What…?"

"Please… It'll kill him."

MC turns to see his profile in the dim light and suddenly jerks up, enraged.

"HE'S BEEN LIVING ON BORROWED TIME, JIHYUN. RIKA KILLED HIM YEARS AGO AND YOU LENT HER THE KNIFE."

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"I can't be with you right now."

And the sound of a zipper slashes through the air like a whip.

Please, please stay.

"I don't know if I'll ever trust you again. I mean, you've been staring straight into his eyes for almost half a decade with a poker face. Who knows what kind of secrets you're keeping from me."

And a suitcase wheels across the house.

She knows she's being unfair.

"If I ever get to forgive you for this, I won't be able to do it while staying under the same roof as you."

But truly, how do you come back from a thing like this?

How do you meet your lover's eyes after a thing like this?

She stops at the door and bites down hard on her lip one last time.

She turns around.

"I'm going to come back. Someday. Wait for me if you want to, or don't. But be alive when I return… Please… I never asked anything from you, so please just do this one thing…"

V doesn't understand why those words feel like a white hot iron piercing through his chest.

MC takes a shaky breath.

"Tell. Him."

He wants to look up but he's so ashamed, like a fire burning in the pit of his stomach and crawling into his throat, grasping his shoulders like a vice.

"It's only a matter of time… Lesser the betrayal. Make him understand before he draws conclusions… Be gentle… I'll… be there for him."

And she's gone.

And V claws and holds onto that request of 'keep breathing'.

I just…

I wanted to save him the pain…

God…

I…

I just wanted to save everyone…

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'We were hiding from the storm in houses made of paper', by AGirlAndABear.

Word count: 2,903

Publishing date: 19-Sep-17

[that-black-parade]

V’s Route Walkthrough (Day 6)

[Previous Day | Next Day]

01:17 707 Cyber News. Selection 1

Hello^^; (Nothing)

You didn’t recognize me because you had too much work? T-T  (707)

Selection 2

My head spins whenever I think about it;; (Nothing)

Yes… (Nothing) 

Selection 3

Umm… how’s the messenger security? (V)

You’re getting your meals on time, aren’t you? (707)

Selection 4

I know you’ll win, Seven! (707) 

This hacker won’t give up… (Ray)

Selection 5

Looks like you got enough for joking around. (Nothing)

You need a right too! (Nothing) 

Selection 6

Wow, no kidding! You made them for fun, but they’re impressive! (Nothing)

Who made them?;;; (Nothing)

Selection 7

Daffodils. (Nothing)

Blank puzzles. (V)

707BunnygirlLoveU (707)

Selection 8

Should I start greeting you with binary numbers? 0101111011 (707)

Jaehee… You’re still up late… (Jaehee)

Selection 9

You work all day and night, Jaehee T-T (Jaehee)

Why don’t we ask her about the coordinates password? (Nothing)

Selection 10

The sun. (V)

Coffee. (Jaehee)

Cats. 

Selection 11

Aren’t you…awkward with V, Jaehee? (Nothing)

Don’t you think it’d be something related to Rika? (Nothing)

Selection 12

Rainbow color?

Mint color? (Nothing)

Cobalt blue? (Nothing)

Selection 13

V has mint-colored eyes! (V)

It kind of sounds random! (Nothing)

Selection 14

I don’t think Rika is the provocative type…; (Nothing)

My eyes are provocative too lol

Hmmm…that sounds worth a try. (Nothing)

Selection 15

Do you think V’s heart also has 16-fold-locks? (V)

So how long does it take? (Nothing)

Selection 16

What will happen if you get the coordinates for this place faster than expected…? (V)

Don’t you think it’s better to get the coordinates after a week, like V said? (V)

Selection 17

I’ll see you again… (Nothing)

Bye bye. (Nothing)

Selection 18

That’s nice of him T-T (Jaehee)

Who is it? (Nothing)

Selection 19

Ok…could you ask him to send me an email? (Email)

He might be a  fraud mocking Christmas! I decline! (Nothing)

Selection 20

He seems to have a lot of hobbies. (Nothing)

You two are in carefully calculated contract relationship…Didn’t you know? Your relationship is made of money. (Nothing)

Selection 21

It will! Cheer up, Jaehee. (Jaehee)

It’s an order. So you must do it T-T (Nothing)

02:43 V’s Concern. Selection 1

I can’t sleep. I feel uneasy..

I’m lonely… (Nothing)

There was something I’ve been working on… (Nothing)

Selection 2

I heard she’s busy. Don’t you think you’re making her even busier? (V)

I think he’s trying to decrypt the coordinates as fast as he can. (V)

Selection 3

You sound like you’re hiding something again, V. (V)

Do the mint-colored eyes mean something? (V)

Selection 4

I don’t think getting the right coordinates is going to be easy. (V)

What is it? Can’t you tell me?

Selection 5

V, you shouldn’t let yourself get in danger…That might be the best way for you. (V)

So there’s something in this place that Luciel must not find out. 

Selection 6

Yes? (Nothing)

Hmm?

Selection 7

It’s alright…It’s rather quiet here. (Nothing)

Actually, I’m a little bored since they’re ignoring me.

I’m already anxious enough. And that’s more than uncomfortable enough…

Selection 8

You turned a little brighter thanks to me, didn’t you? (V)

Thanks, but I’m not really sure if you changed. 

Selection 9

I don’t think this is really the time for that…

Do you think I’m attractive, V? (V)

Selection 10

I’m going to stay awake just a little bit more.

Yes…I should. (Nothing)

07:55 Changes Jumin Sees Selection 1

It’s a beautiful morning! (Nothing)

It’s an energetic and strong morning. 

Selection 2

I hear a lot of metaphors. You sound rather unfamiliar.

So simply put…your cat stretched?

Pictures! Let me see them! (Jumin)

Selection 3

V is still looking for Rika’s traces. It breaks my heart. (V)

Maybe it doesn’t mean anything. 

Selection 4

When do you go to bed, Jaehee? ;;;

Jaehee! You’re here so early. (Nothing)

Selection 5

So how’s the intelligence unit going? (Jumin)

She’s right. You should go to work!

Selection 6

And don’t forget V! You can also protect him! (V)

I think you could solve everything if you know where I am, Jumin…

Selection 7

In a bad way?

In a not-so-good-way?

In a good way? (Nothing)

Selection 8

V is so stubborn. (V)

I think V is slowly approaching me because my heart is wide open for him.

Selection 9

To be hones, I feel so frustrated whenever I talk to him!

I hope V will take courage and break his wall himself! (V)

Selection 10

What? Why? (Nothing)

Why don’t you go there yourself?

Selection 11

Jaehee, please make sure V doesn’t see those pictures. (V)

Don’t you think he might have seen them already?

Selection 12

Aren’t you going to work…?

Bye… (Nothing)

Selection 13

You should copy yourself and let the clone do the job.

But you can’t send anyone else to V’s home T-T (V)

Selection 14

He’ll give a new task once this one is finished, won’t he? Lol (Nothing)

Let’s take care of them one by one!

Selection 15

That’s the time when you want to just let go of everything and run away.

Why don’t you have a cup of morning coffee? (Jaehee)

Selection 16

Good luck today, Jaehee! (Jaehee)

Long is the way of the head of the intelligence unit…

10:24 Don’t Want to be Hated Selection 1

Ray, please let me out of here!

Ray, are you still attacking the RFA? (Nothing)

Selection 2

Why do you keep doing this?

Are you the one who sent those images to the RFA? (V)

Selection 3

It looks like nothing but a malicious delivery… (V)

So you’re saying V is not trustworthy? 

Selection 4

Actually, I think it’s reckless that he’s coming to save me all by himself. (V)

Right now I am a hostage…

Selection 5

They’ll come to save me if I lose contact by force. (V)

Wouldn’t it help you if I keep contacting the RFA?

Selection 6

Now that I listen to you…I’m not sure.

I’ll trust V. (V)

Selection 7

I’ll think about if you show me that you’re in torment.

Don’t touch the RFA anymore. And please let me go. (V)

Show me that you truly repent. 

Selection 8

When did you learn to hack?

Please don’t torment Seven too much… (707)

Selection 9

I hope it helps to tell them the truth.

Are you going to send something worse than images? (V)

Selection 10

I…like someone else. (V)

I like you too.

Selection 11

How?

Are you going to make me take that drug? (V)

Selection 12

I don’t believe you… (V)

Why do you hate V so much?

Selection 13

I think something bad will happen if I see her. (V)

Who is this savior?

Selection 14

What does she have to do with V? (Nothing)

What preparations?

Selection 15

You will come to se me…right?

When will you let me out of here? (V)

12:33 Need Some Fresh Air Selection 1

About time to gaze at the sun, worrying about V… (V)

About time to play with a cat. (707)

About time to get hungry.

Selection 2

Your body rhythms turn irregular, with could cause obesity or imbalance of hormones in the future, and… (Jumin)

What should I do, God7!? (707)

Selection 3

Is something wrong?

You’re gonna work in secret with the intelligence unit!? (Nothing)

Selection 4

I wanna get some air in your car, Seven. (Nothing)

Welcome, Yoosung! Are you at school? (Nothing)

Selection 5

I think you should stay under Zen’s protection. (Zen)

You should. Be brave! (Yoosung)

Selection 6

Me, me! Me too! (Ray)

Yoosung…why would you go there…? (V)

Selection 7

He can take the truck! (Yoosung)

…Good for you, Jaehee. (707)

Selection 8

I think I’m reading a conversation between thieves or something… (707)

Stop suspecting V, Yoosung T-T (V)

Selection 9

Play LOLOL lol (Yoosung)

What about Zen? (Zen)

Selection 10

Whoa… nostalgia. (Zen)

What is that? Lolol (707)

I wonder what Zen does with that computer.

Selection 11

He should keep it well until he donates it to a museum… (707)

Why won’t he get a new one? (Zen)

Selection 12

I wish I could help Zen somehow… (Zen)

I think I know now how precious is my computer. (707)

Selection 13

Ok….there’s no other choice. (707 + email).

I’d like to protect Zen’s vintage original aspects. (Nothing)

Selection 14

We are going to have the party! The RFA party will be held as planned! (Nothing)

I also feel like I’m sending emails just for fun. (Nothing)

Selection 15

Walkingman was made on the same era as Zen’s computer… (Nothing)

What’s that?

I think Zen would use that to listen to music… (Zen)

Selection 16

I think we should first help Zen before we hold a charity party. (707)

Zen must be so patient. (Zen)

Selection 17

I think this is a good time for a donation… (Zen)

Home - sweet home - (Yoosung)

Selection 18

What kind of nagging does he give? (Nothing)

I think you should call him mom. (Nothing)

Selection 19

I wish LOLOL would work on phones… (Nothing)

You should go to an internet cafe. (Nothing)

Selection 20

Bye! (Nothing)

Please be careful of kidnappers! (V)

You said you’re too scared to go out hehehe. (Nothing)

14:42 Passion Red (Jaehee and Zen) Selection 1

Jaehee, are you on your way? (Nothing)

Jaehee, is the intelligence unit all set? (Nothing)

Selection 2

But I think V will be distressed when he sees those pictures… (V)

I think Jumin made a good choice. (Nothing)

Selection 3

He said he’s going to get some air —

He’s not going to sneak into V’s house, is he? (V)

Hmm…he seems to be up to something. (Nothing)

Selection 4

Ask him! (Nothing)

What is his car like? (Nothing)

Selection 5

I wonder what kind of car V owns. (V)

Seven…he’s so cool! (Nothing)

Selection 6

I think Seven would make a better model. (Nothing)

I’d like to go on a drive with V… (V)

Selection 7

Hi, Zen. (Nothing)

Here comes devastatingly handsome man. (Zen)

Selection 8

Lucky you, Jaehee T-T (Jaehee)

Zen do you know how to drive? (Nothing)

Selection 9

Jaehee said you’ll make a fabulous car model lol (Nothing)

I thought of V! (V)

Selection 10

It’s the graceful stability that dances between speeding and slowing! (Zen)

It would feel like being carried in a giant can. (Nothing)

Selection 11

I don’t really like cars. (Nothing)

I wanna try Seven’s car - it’s packed with speed. (V)

Then I’d like to try Jumin’s car lol (Jumin)

Selection 12

Didn’t anyone ever tell you that you’ll never get to keep a lot of money if you rent a lot?

No no you should first get a new computer… (Nothing)

Just do it. Do it today! (Nothing)

Selection 13

I think you should throw it into a junk shop. (Nothing)

What? It looked pretty useful lol (Nothing)

Selection 14

You should try installing LOLOL. (Nothing)

What can you possibly do with that computer? (Nothing)

Selection 15

What’s your OS? (Nothing)

Oh no…Not the blue screen…! (Nothing)

Selection 16

Yep………. (Nothing)

Sniffle….I should’ve given you my old laptop instead of throwing it away T-T (Nothing)

If you have a smartphone the there’s no worry ^^ (Nothing)

Selection 17

You do have TV, don’t you? (Nothing)

Do you have a Walkingman? (Nothing)

Selection 18

I wonder what kind of pictures V got. I’m starting to get worried. (V)

Zen, you didn’t get one, did you? (Nothing)

Selection 19

I wonder what V’s home is like… (V)

Seven is quite a driver, isn’t he? (Nothing)

Selection 20

I’m sure he does more than Jumin does lol (Nothing)

I don’t think he does lol (Nothing)

Selection 21

I’m sure you’re more well-built, Zen! You work out every day! (Nothing)

Rough is the life of and agent… (707)

Selection 22

See you soon. (Nothing)

Don’t be so stressed out! Have fun! (Zen)

Selection 23

Agreed!! I can’t believe he owns Hindows95 T-T (Nothing)

Do you think V is good with computers? (V)

Selection 24

Have a safe trip! Please watch Seven so that he doesn’t break into V’s house! (Nothing)

Goodbye. (Nothing)

16:19 Yoosung’s Heaven (Yoosung and Jumin) Selection 1

Yoosung, how are your games going so far? (Yoosung)

Yoosung, did you have dinner yet?

Selection 2

Cup noodle is bad for your health! Especially for your skin!

You’re at an internet café, so you should get a cup noodle! Lol (Yoosung)

Selection 3

You’ve found peace. (Yoosung)

A robot? Wow, that’s future right there. (Nothing)

Selection 4

Jumin, have you ever had a cup noodle? (Nothing)

Welcome, Jumin. (Nothing)

Selection 5

Is it because Jaehee isn’t with you right now? (Jaehee)

She still hasn’t reported back to you? I thought that’s something unacceptable at C&R!!! (Jaehee)

Selection 6

You talked about work even in chat rooms? T-T (Jaehee)

Where did she place the document? (Jumin)

Selection 7

It sounds like there are other manuals too…Lol

Jaehee…I wonder when she can return home tonight… (Nothing)

Selection 8

Yoosung, your suspicion is just endless… Can’t you trust V just a little? T-T (V)

I’m not sure if there’s anything suspicious waiting…But I’m curious too.

Selection 9

Oh…Thank you for the compliment! (Yoosung)

I don’t think there’s anything I’ve done here…

Selection 10

Yes… V will come to save me. (V)

But he’s still hiding something. 

Selection 11

I hope you’d take more action instead of blaming V! (V + Jumin)

Yoosung is suspicious because V made secrets. 

Selection 12

Umm…you mean those scary people?

Good idea! Now that’s something only you can do. (Yoosung)

Selection 13

Good luck! (Nothing)

Make sure you keep your voice straight. (Nothing)

Selection 14

I think this sounds all very strange to you, Jumin. (Nothing)

Get black bean noodles. (Nothing)

Selection 15

A vending machine robot for cup noodles? (Nothing)

A person who’s been staying there for more than 20 days per month? (Nothing)

Selection 16

Let’s invite him! And let’s place computers at the party! (Email)

So he must have been away from the bath for 20 days. I refuse. 

Selection 17

Good luck! (Nothing)

Bye.

Selection 18

How’s the intelligence unit going? (Nothing)

Tell me about it. So I’m assuming she still hasn’t reported to you. (Nothing)

Selection 19

What’s the menu? (Nothing)

Are you leaving?

18:23 Heading Toward 2020 (Zen and 707) Selection 1

Are you back from rehearsal, Zen? (Nothing)

Zen, how was your exercise? (Zen)

Selection 2

Yes, there’s nothing like a shower after exercise! (Zen)

I wish I could take wings too lol (707)

Selection 3

I want to lie down and chug potato chips until early morning… (Nothing)

If I see your silhouette in the mirror in the middle of our exercise session… (Zen)

You’re such a hard worker! That’s so cool!

Selection 4

I’m not really interested in weight loss or gain hehe (Nothing)

We’ll get to hear lots of helpful tips on a diet! Great!

Selection 5

Welcome! (Nothing)

Yeah yeah! (707)

Selection 6

She said that in the previous chat room! ! (Nothing)

Zen, I think you’re addicted to exercise… (Nothing)

Selection 7

Is V fit too? *_* (V)

So you get to go outside more ofter that stay at your desk? (707)

Selection 8

No! You’re going to take that lovely computer away form Zen, aren’t you? (Zen)

I think you need to have your seriousness on if you¡re going to advise him on computers. (707)

Selection 9

Looks awesome… (707)

Is that for Zen? (Zen)

Selection 10

So how much is it? (Nothing)

The latest model runs on Hidows 7? (Nothing)

Selection 11

I don’t think it’s really a good laptop (Nothing)

Don’t you think we should get him THE latest model? (Nothing)

Selection 12

You’re not giving him a laptop you’ve been using, are you? If it’s 5 years old, its lifespan is almost over… (Zen)

Do you have 36 months plan with no interest? (707)

Selection 13

Wow! Seriously? That’s unbelievable! (707)

Sniff sniff … I smell trouble… (Zen)

Selection 14

...May God7 watch over you. (707)

When? (Zen)

Selection 15

I think this time he really means it! (707)

Nothing is free in this world. (Zen)

Selection 16

By the way, Seven. How did your trip to V’s house go? (707)

Zen, you should say farewell to your computer. (Zen)

Selection 17

Why not keep that computer? (Zen)

He said he needs your computer to work on something. (707)

Selection 18

Back up! Back them up! (Nothing)

You can actually see photos with that computer?

Selection 19

Oh, two in a row? Who is it now? (Nothing)

We are having a party, right? (Nothing)

Selection 20

Same here! I hate relationship with secrets! (Zen)

Hmm…but don’t you think you need some distance from the other party? (V)

Selection 21

Though I’d like to know what acquaintance of your acquaintance… Alright. Let’s invite him (Nothing)

I think it’s going to be difficult to check if he’s at the party or not … (Nothing)

Selection 22

So long…386 (Nothing)

Ok see ya! (Nothing)

20:00 Doubtful Family (Jaehee and Yoosung)

Selection 1

Nothing in particular. What about you? (Jaehee)

I moved to somewhere else…But I’m fine. (V)

Selection 2

No, I would’ve done the same thing (Nothing)

I wouldn’t mind lol (Nothing)

Selection 3

Was there something in V’s mailbox? (V)

Does it look like V returns home often? (Ray)

Selection 4

Did you call your aunt? (Nothing)

Welcome! (Nothing)

Selection 5

What was in it? (V)

Why would the sender send such things to V? (Ray)

Selection 6

Do you think he missed Rika? (V)

…Do you think V will love Rika forever? (V)

Selection 7

Did you talk to your aunt? (Yoosung)

You’re not suspecting V again, are you? (V)

Selection 8

Does Rika have lots of belongings? (Nothing)

Why would she tell you to take Rika’s stuff? (Nothing)

Selection 9

Does you think they’re too sad to admit she’s dead? (Nothing)

And why would your aunt say that? (Nothing)

Selection 10

It’s so sad, but it looks like something is definitely wrong. (V)

Maybe Rika is still alive. They’re her parents, after all. (V)

Selection 11

And you’ve been blaming V all this time with no idea about this…? (V)

Do you think what we know about Rika is what she really is? (V)

Selection 12

They’re basically strangers, don’t you think? (V)

But I think it’s strange Rika never talked about her parents. (V)

Selection 13

It looks like Rika’s parents don’t know her very well. (Nothing)

But they’re still her parents. Maybe it’s true to some extent (Nothing)

Selection 14

I wonder what Rika was like when she was with her parents. (V)

This isn’t your fault… (Yoosung)

Selection 15

V didn’t add to Rika’s trouble, did he? (V)

Perhaps that’s why she made such a dire choice. (V)

Selection 16

You shouldn’t look for someone to blame. Instead, you should star offering condolence to Rika with your heart. (V)

I think it’s time to let go of Rika (Yoosung)

Selection 17

From now on let’s trust V together (V)

But whether we can trust what V discovered is a whole different question. (V)

Selection 18

If you’re stressed out, you might want to take a break. Don’t think about anything else. (Yoosung)

But it’s good that now we know something about Rika (V)

Selection 19

I’m fine…I met someone new, so I’m a little nervous. But I’m fine! I’ll tell you if there’s danger. (V)

I met someone new, so I think I have to stay alert for a while. (V)

Selection 20

See you again, Yoosung. (Nothing)

I hope you take a break! Everything will be ok! (Nothing)

Selection 21

Yes, if there’s anyone who needs my help, I’m willing to offer it (V)

Grief belongs to grieving .I don’t think there’s a need to reveal it. (V)

Sometimes I hide my grief too

Selection 22

Rika must have had a tragic past. I’m starting to feel bad for her. (V)

I think things would’ve been different if Rika was willing to show what she felt. (V)

Selection 23

Alright. I was actually think gin about having some time to myself. (Jaehee)

I’m going to wait for V to contact me (V)

VNM -

Selection 1

I’m thinking what this place is. (Nothing)

I’ve come simply to test a game. But now it feels like I’m caught in something terribly big. 

Selection 2

You look like a scary person (Nothing)

You look like a weird person.

You look like a nice person. (Nothing)

Selection 3

Do you hate me?

Do you like me? (Nothing)

Why do you keep asking me question? (Nothing)

Are you jealous of me? (Nothing)

Selection 4

What do you mean? (Nothing)

So why don’t you find answers to your questions? (Nothing)

Selection 5

V will come save me… (Nothing)

I can feel my heart fluttering…

But I like Ray’s method. (Nothing)

Selection 6

Yes, I’d like to, but not with you (Nothing)

Will I? (Nothing)

I don’t believe you.

22:02 His Idea of Family (Jaehee and Yoosung)

Selection 1

Welcome, Jumin. (Nothing)

I think something’s gonna happen tonight… (Nothing)

Selection 2

Jumin, what are you doing right now? (Jumin)

But that’s the proof Jaehee’s doing a good job -  (Jaehee)

Selection 3

Rika might have hidden their relationship.  (V)

I’m sure he did. He’s her fiance… (V)

Selection 4

Well, you can’t change your familial environment… (V)

Maybe everything else other than her parents were fine. (Nothing)

Selection 5

What’s the matter? Are you anxious? (V)

Yep! I’m fine. (V)

Selection 6

Umm, let’s not talk much in this chat room (V)

How did Seven find out the coordinates? (707)

Selection 7

Since when did you live with your cat, Jumin? (Nothing)

How’s your cat doing, Jumin? (Jumin)

Selection 8

So you were not interested in her parents? (V)

Did Rika avoid talking about her parents? (V)

Selection 9

But marriage happens between two people, not two families (V)

You mean…marriage of convenience!?

Ugh…you’re right. (Nothing)

Selection 10

So you loved her just the way she is. (V)

I think what matters in looking at a person’s true essence is to figure out what kind of mind their actions or responses arise from. (Jumin)

Selection 11

Perhaps you two got engaged a little too fast. (V)

Why do’t we call an end to this conversation? This is a personal story on Rika (V)

Selection 12

What’s the matter? Is there something that bother you? (V)

But maybe it would’ve been better for V to see them (V)

Selection 13

Is your security tight? (Nothing)

Soon…? (Nothing)

Selection 14

Have a good time with Elizabeth the 3rd. (Jumin)

Bye, Jumin (Nothing)

Selection 15

Did you just call him? (Nothing)

So Seven knows where I am, right? (Nothing)

Selection 16

So exact when are you coming? (V)

Yes, I will. Don’t worry (V)

VNM -

Selection 1

Why are you so nice to me? (Nothing)

How old is this building? (Nothing)

Selection 2

Do you have lots of wounds? (Nothing)

Does Ray have lots of wound too? (Nothing)

Selection 3

Did you also alternate between fear and happiness within?

I’m worried about Ray (Nothing)

Selection 4

What’s your relation to the RFA…? (Nothing)

I want to know your real name (Nothing)

Selection 5

I see. (Nothing)

You’re not using me as a bait, are you? (Nothing)

Selection 6

You are right. (Nothing)

V! This place isn’t save. Run! (Nothing)

Selection 7

I knew it. You are Rika (Nothing)

You called her … Rika. (Nothing)

Selection 8

Good for him.  (Nothing)

V! (Nothing)

Rika…this is so confusing

23:11 What Happened to V!?! (V, Yoosung, Jaehee, Jumin)

Selection 1

V! Are you alright? (Nothing)

Yoosung..please save me! (Nothing)

VNM -

Selection 1

The place is weird. Everything seems agains the laws. (Nothing)

Rika, you look anxious. (Nothing)

Selection 

What will happen to V now…? (Nothing)

A little  (Nothing)

Why do you hate V so much? (Nothing)

Selection 3

Couldn’t you be the light? (Nothing)

Is that why you made this place? (Nothing)

Selection 5

He’ll think that it’s a noble sacrifice… (Nothing)

What are you going to do with V? (Nothing)

Selection 6

What is it?

[mysticmessingupmylife]

The RFA + V + Saeran comforting insecure, chubby!MC

this is inspired by the douchebag that told me on the bus station today that i “would’ve been hot if i was skinny, but big boobs and ass don’t matter when you’re fat”, such a nice thing to say to a stranger!!1! :)) so here you go, here's all my insecurities bc i needed to rant

Yoosung

He thought you were really pretty! And you were great to cuddle with!

Would probably blush every time you hugged because your boobs were pressing against him he loved it 

The cutest thing ever was when you wore oversized clothes because you looked so tiny, making him feel big and manly

He lowkey really wanted you to steal his clothes, as that would confirm you were his possessive Yoosung is my favorite Yoosung, but you never did

A few weeks after you started dating, you went out stargazing

Because he had his arm around you, he could feel you start to shiver in the cold night air

“Baby girl, are you cold? Do you wanna borrow my hoodie?”

You wanted to say yes, but knew it wouldn’t really fit you as Yoosung was a lot smaller than you, so you declined

“Are you sure? I don’t want you to get sick”

You cuddled closer to him, burried your face into his chest and mumbled that it wouldn’t fit anyways, so he would just have to heat you up

He looked at you confused before he realized that you were calling yourself too fat for his clothes, when he held you even tighter

“You know I love you, right? I really don’t mind how you look, I-I honestly think you’re really really attractive, and I want you to feel comfortable...”

To prove his point, he gave your butt a light squeeze, blushed and kissed you

After that, he bought lots of big hoodies you could steal from him!

Zen

Zen had an extra long rehersal, and you had accidently fallen asleep while you watched tv and waited for him to come home

When he saw you sprawled out on the couch, he smiled because of how cute you were

Wanting cuddles and trying to avoid that you slept in a weird position and locked a joint, he kissed your forehead and scooped you up in his arms to carry you to bed

You woke up and instantly panicked, never having been picked up like that before

“No Zenny, put me down! I’m too heavy, you’re gonna drop me!”

He put you down in the hallway, confused because no one had ever complained when he had picked them up

“Do you really think I would drop my princess? I’m more than strong enough to carry you, it’s not like I’ve never picked you up before! You’re really not that heavy anyways”

When you didn’t seem to believe him, he put his hands on your hips and pulled you close 

“Want me to prove to you how perfect I think you are, hm? I would gladly show you, you know”

Jaehee

You already knew that she was skinny because she never had the time to eat enough, but it was unfair that she still looked amazing while you looked like a potato

When the two of you opened the café she was always the ones to make the pastries while you took care of the counter, as you didn’t want to get tempted, “taste” the sweet treats and gain more weight

At first she just thought you didn’t like baking, but when you told her over a dinner how much you liked to make food, she didn’t understand

“Why don’t you help me with the pastries, then?”

You hesitated, but told her that you were scared to gain weight, especially because she looked so perfect and a customer had told you last week that your dress was too short as no one wanted to see your fat and nasty legs, and that you “needed to cover up your fat arms”

Shocked, she took your hand and kissed it

“How could someone say that to someone as nice and pretty as you? MC, please don’t think badly of yourself. They don’t know you, and have no right to judge you! You’re beautiful as well, I actually quite like your legs”

She blushed and grinned cheekily, making you laugh

Jumin

Having quite a lot of extra weight, you definitely had above averagely sized breasts

Jumin loved them and bought you clothes that would show them off (not trashy though, just classy and sexy), but he noticed that you never wore them

Actually, you usually just wore oversized clothes

He had read in some magazine that women always took of their bras at the end of the day and that it was their highlight, but you never did?? You even slept with both a bra and a shirt?? Even though you complained about them being uncomfortable??

He hadn’t even seen you without a bra yet, shirt or not - he of course respected your wish to not go all of the way yet, but you had already been dating for over two months and he was getting worried that he had done anything wrong

The next time your kisses got hot and heavy and he slid his hands under your shirt only to get stopped, he finally asked why

Did you not find him attractive? Had someone hurt you in the past? Did you even like him that way?

You felt guilty that he felt like that just because you were insecure that your boobs were saggy, and you admitted it to him

He assured you that he didn’t mind! It wasn’t like he was expecting your e cups to be that perky anyways, he understood basic anatomy enough to know that natural boobs would sag

“Kitten, I love you, but you are honestly being a bit silly. You have absolutely nothing to be insecure about. If it bothers you that much I can of course pay for you to get surgery, but I can assure you that you’re the most attractive person I’ve ever seen. More to bounce around is never a bad thing”

He winked, making you blush, before he kissed you neck in hopes of continuing where you had left off

707

As soon as he told you about the security cameras he had installed in Rika’s appartment, you asked him which rooms were safe from his spying eyes

You wanted to make sure that he didn’t see you change, so he wouldn’t see your embarassing stretch marks that covered your hips, belly, back and thighs, the very ones that had made people ask you at severel occations if you had been pregnant (actually the most embarassing thing ever)

Even though you managed to hide them from him when you stayed in that damned appartment, you knew he would notice when you had to stay at his house

The first few days were easy enough as he ignored you anyways and wouldn’t even let you into his room where he was working, leaving you with no other choice than to sleep at his couch to wait for him

That’s exactly where he found you when he decided that he probably needed some fresh air, and that he should check on you

Feeling slightly perverted by checking you out when you were at your most vulnerable, he noticed that your shirt had riled up and showed the stretchmarks on your tummy

He made a mental note to remember them before taking a short walk outside, having enough insecurities to know that they probably bothered you

As soon as he cut his tsundere crap and showed you some love, you noticed that he liked to rest his hands on your hips and rub small circles with his thumbs

“You’re so beautiful, you know? Good god, I love you so much”

You blushed hard as he slowly took of your shirt off, tracing the bumps from your marks with his hands

He thought they made you unique! He made sure to ask you for permission to kiss them as every part of you deserved love, and if you weren’t willing to give it, he would!

V

This nerd would take pictures of you whenever he could

His favorites were the ones where you didn't pay attention to him - laughing, talking to someone, dancing around

But despite being an amazing photographer, not even he could change the fact that you had extra fat that showed from every angle

Double chin, back rolls, belly and thighs

Sometimes he would show you the pictures he had taken during the day and tell you his exact thoughts about you when he took them, how pretty you were in that dress, how cute your giggle was, but it didn't make the fat less obvious

"Do I... Do I really look that fat?"

"What do you mean, angel?"

You pointed out all your flaws, and you could see his frown become more prominent with everything you mentioned

"This is what you look like, why would you want to change that? You're beautiful and I know that you don't really eat unhealthy, you just have unlucky genes. That doesn't change the fact that you're really pretty, and that I'm super lucky to have you! The world needs more plus size models anyways, don't you agree?"

He kissed your head when he finished his short speech, and you looked at your blue haired boyfriend in awe

"If it means anything, just know that I really like how you look. I think you're hot"

He started laughing when you jokingly nudged him in the shoulder, telling him to shut up and kiss you

Unknown/Saeran

As weeks passed and he got more comfortable with you, he gradually became more clingy

He really enjoyed holding and leaning on you/you leaning on him, as everthing about you was soft and comfortable!

Eventually he would become comfortable enough for kisses, and before you knew it he would have plopped you down on his lap

Insecure about your weight you tried to get off, explaining that you were a lot heavier than you looked and therefore was afraid of crushing his legs

He held you closer and refused to let you go or listen to you, as he knew far too well what it was like to have your insecurities take over

“MC, stop being ridiculous, you’re perfect. And you look really good seated in my lap, you know? I want you right here”

You saw a faint blush spread across his cheeks and felt your own face match

“O-okay...”

He would of course respect you if you wasn’t into it, but trust me when I say that this guy would not hesitate to leave hickies all over your neck just to remind you that you were his, and that he loved you

~jane

[crying-saeyoung]

In the game MC always needs saving by the RFA, which kind of annoys me because I'm not the sort of person who relies on other people's help. What if the tables were turned and MC was the one saving the RFA (and maybe the minor trio if ya want) from something, whether it's something really small like an insect or something really big, like a house fire? Btw your headcanons are great - and so are you!

This is a great idea!! I personally hate this kind of stereotype in games, so I loved writing this!! I hope it’s what you wanted??Also, thank you so much anon!!! you’re great too ! (⁄ ⁄^⁄ᗨ⁄^⁄ ⁄) -Green

Yoosung:

-so, we’re going tame for this guy

-because like.

-he LITERALLY CALLS YOU and does his sappy I love you and sCREAM s because of a cockroach . He SCrEAMS

-so this will be that kind of scenario

-you two are just chilling at your apartment, on the couch and cuddling. Lots of cute kisses

-ily Yoosung

-and suddenly.,,,,

-A SPIYDER crawls right along your shoulder

-Yoosung is. Dead. He screams in your ear and practically THROWS you off of him

-once you see why ur like “ew gross” and just squash it. With your bear hands.

-Yoosung can’t process it because for One: it’s so great you can kill bugs without crying how do you do that

-Two: EW YOU HAVE SPIDER GUTS ON YOU???

-you chase him around the house with your gross hands

-he hates you he loves u tho

Saeyoung:

-you’re being hunted by people who want to get seven (cheesy I know, bear with me)

-ok. Okooookookk. Ok.

-SEVEN, BABY. BABY WE GET IT

-you just want to protect Mc, I know. But like. mc can do perfectly fine on their own thank you

-when he straight up ignores you and says it’s for your safety and shit??? AGAIN??? You thought you solved this??

-you’re not okay with that.

-you’ve told him several times you can protect yourself, and he won’t listen!!!! He just keeps working!!!! What’s he working on anyway???!

-you are. Anger.

-so one morning you find Saeyoung asleep and you go into his computer

-you feel terrible for it but you can’t take it anymore ok

-you find out where his enemies are. And you just leave. You left only a note saying you could take care of yourself, packed a bag and took his car.

-by the time Saeyoung wakes up, he’s hella confused because it’s around night

-“ I slept in oh no ” dance ensues

-rushes to his computer, is about to HACK AWAY before he finds your note

-lol he’s crying

-he’s freaking out and calling your name, searching the whole house

-he can’t find you a n y w h e r e

-right when he’s about to leave and look for you, you come in through the door

-you look hella beat up but you’re

-you’re smiling???

-he runs to you and just cries in your shoulder. You have to calm him down and after that you take care of the injuries

-after this FINE little incident, Saeyoung tries to be less protective and so insistent to do things on his own.

-lots of cuddles afterwards

Jumin:

-DAAAAAANNNNGG

-you two were going out for dinner, just a normal night for insanely rich people and you were laughing, having fun

-you’re at an obscenely expensive restaurant ( because you deserve the best of the best )

-when there’s a gunshot suddenly

-someone shouts to get on the ground and you all hide under tables

-Jumin is. Not okay. You are in DANGEr. He has to DO SOMETHING

-before he can call his guards your on your feet

-OH MY GOD WHAT ARE YOU DOING, MC WAIT

-you literally tACKLE THIS FUCKER TO THE GROUND

-you throw the gun out of reach and just start

-mauling this dude

-you’ve never been more attractive in Jumins eyes oh my Goodness

-someone was smart enough to call the police, and you have him knocked up and ready to go like a little present by the time the police get there

-both you and jumin don’t want to be invaded by reporters so you leave ASAP and jumin

-this little boy doesn’t know what to do because GOD YOU WERE HOT but also YOU COULD HAVE DIED

-he won’t let you out of his sights for the rest of the week

Jaehee:

-HELL YEAH POWER COUPLE

-She does not underestimate you at all. you both practice your butt kicking stuff together

-whenever a guy does something inappropriate to either of you, the two of you just laugh and then KICK HIS ASS TOGETHER

-You save each other from everything all the time.

-everything is mutual. Jaehee is literally the only one in the group that backs off and let’s you fight your own fights, just lets you know she’s got your BACK BABY

-i love my wife…

Zen:

-gah…. b r o ,,…

-this guy  i n h a l e s  stereotypes

-smokes them every morning before work

-”Honey, cook me dinner!!!” “Babe, I’ll do the heavy lifting”

- A  G  H

-you are prepared. the next chance you get, you’re going to SHOW HIM

-Show him you’re more than his little s/o. you have the p o w e r to kick his ass. just know every time he says a stereotype, you decided to let him live.

-so one day you two are out on a date, right?

-he takes you to a store you like and the two of you split up.

-Zen comes back, wanting to show you an item he think you would like, when he sees a guy stalking up on you

-A L L MEN ARE W O L V ES

-as soon as he sees this guy grope you, he’s about to ROCKET.

-but then you just. do a 180 turn and slap that dick across the face, making him fall on the floor.

-AND YOU CASUALLY JUST KICK HIM IN THE GUT AND WALK OVER AND GIVE HIM A KISS

-he is honestly. so impressed.

-never will he under estimate you again. that was amazing

V:

-so, we all know how V feels the responsibility to take everything in his own hands and have lots and lotsa secrets

-you don’t get too mad when he does this to you, because you’re trying to understand

-but when you learn he’s putting himself in danger to ‘protect’ you, you have a hard time.

-I think instead of saving him from something, because really his only threat was rika and lol she gone now

-you would bring it up with him

-you both would have a very very long chat. I don’t think V wouldn’t not believe you if you said you could easily protect yourself

-he trusts everything that comes out of your mouth 1000%

-oh V oh precious V,,, falls for the pranks too easily you don’t even know if it counts as fun

-It’s just hard for him to accept that he isn’t alone. He doesn’t need to do everything himself.

-Oh V.

Saeran:

-oh BOY was this fun to write

-it was the worst thing ever don’t make me do this ever again I cried

-MAJOR ANGST UP AHEAD LOLOLOL

-after the Mint Eye, it took Saeran a long. long time to even think about a relationship. which is completely reasonable.

-And let’s face it, Saeran is obviously not the perfect partner.

-none of the RFA members are, they all need help please help them

-The only thing that threatened you in your relationship was Saeran.

-he would randomly get triggered and start screaming and throwing items

-you both had been together long enough to learn how to deal with these situations, but he had caught you off guard one day.

-you were coming into the living room with some healthy snacks, for both Saeyoung and Saeran because. These kids need a mom

-When you walked in Saeran was pinning Saeyoung to the ground and choking him

-and of course Saeyoung wasn’t fighting back. he was most likely thinking he deserved this somehow.

-you quickly dropped everything in your hands and dashed towards him

-you threw him off of Saeyoung, and you tried to get Saeyoung to run out of the room because he wasn’t a good help during these moments of PTSD for Saeran

-but he was just. frozen on the ground.

-Saeran tried to attack him again and you had to smack the vase he somehow got out of his hand, making it shatter on the floor.

-he decides to attack you after that and suddenly the both of you are rolling around on the floor, scratching and biting

-finally you muster up your strength and push him off of you, running to the next room

-he follows you

-you’re in Saeran’s room now and you throw him onto the bed

-you’re manhandling him into a blanket burrito, throwing his limbs where you want them to be as he tries to hit and bite you

-you get him trapped in the blanket and you make him lie down, and you throw yourself on top of him

-it takes him hours to calm down, but eventually he does

-it takes him days to get near you again. he feels disgusting. he feels wrong. he feels like d y i n g. every time he sees you he thinks how he hurt you

-you have to convince him as the days go by you weren’t severally hurt and you would always be there. you can protect yourself, even if it was from him. you can save yourself and you can save him.

-you can save him.

[elvendara]

Part 4 ?for werecat mc and werewolf saeyoung alternative meeting Please! !

OMG This is turning into a book!! With so many parts, I’ll just post the previous ones here for ease:

1, 2, 3

Shecould barely walk, but she didn’t dare let go of Saeyoung’s hand. A nurseeasily pulled her hand away from him and kept her from moving forward. Thestretcher he was on kept rolling down the hall. She tried to go around thenurse, but he held her easily.

“Youcan’t follow him in there miss. I’m sorry, you’ll have to wait here.” MCstopped moving, her eyes on Saeyoung until the double doors closed and he waslost to her. She nodded absently at the nurse and he walked away. She stood,dazed and woozy. Her vision faltered and her body went cold. Darkness seepedinto the edge of her sight and she was sucked into a tunnel where her worldturned upside down. The pinpoint of light vanishing completely. She never felther body hit the floor.

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Sevenwatched her sleep, holding her hand, hoping for any sign that she was waking. Thefirst thing he had thought upon waking himself was Saeran and MC. How had thosetwo become his priority? His brother was obvious, but he had only known MC fora day, if that. Could he count the hours he’d known her as only a cat? He smiledat the memory of her curled up under his arm. He hoped he would be able to seethat part of her again.

He worriedfor her, as much as he worried for his brother. The doctors were trying todetox him, but he was being difficult. They had had to restrain him because ofhis violence. MC had been right, Saeran’s mind was muddled and broken. Even ifthey were able to cleanse his body of the drug, would his mind ever recover?

Hesqueezed MC’s hand, willing her to wake up. He felt a small twitch, her fingerscurving around his palm. He quickly focused on her face, standing and loomingover her.

“MC?”

Her eyelidsfluttered as she tried to open them. he reached for her cheek and caressed it,waiting for her eyes to open completely.

Whenthey did, he breathed a huge sigh of relief. She answered with a small smileand another squeeze of her hand.

“Saeyoung…”she exhaled with a croak. He laughed, his heart thumping rapidly at the onesingle word. Her first word. His name.

“What…whathappened?” she asked shakily. “You…” she tried to sit up, her head spinning. “Oh!”

“Staystill, you were severely dehydrated and malnourished. Your body is still veryweak.”

She gazedat him and tried again, “How, how are you here? You were shot!”

Saeyoungsat on the edge of the bed, his hip against hers. He shrugged, “I heal fast.”

She shookher head, “How long have I been out?” she whispered.

“Fourdays. They’ve been feeding you through those.” He pointed to the IV in herarms. Two bags of liquid flowing into it.

She didfeel better in a way, but her body somehow felt more fragile than when she hadfirst been able to revert to her human form. She was grateful for Saeyoung’s presence,and her heart felt lighter knowing that he was safe. There had been so muchblood, his already pale face whiter from the loss. He looked healthy now, hiseyes still sad, but not as anxious.

“Yourbrother?” she asked finally.

Helooked down and away. “He’s here too, but…” he shrugged. “He doesn’t want tosee me. He isn’t doing well. They, they want to move him to the mental ward.” Hiseyes teared up at the thought.

“I’mso sorry Saeyoung.” he swallowed and nodded.

“Iwish…I wish things were different…he…he’s so broken…” his voice broke and hisbody was wracked with emotions he’d been trying desperately to hold in. Shegathered him into her arms and he fell across her chest, his head buried into thehollow of her neck. He wept against her, the flow of tears saturating the frontof her gown.

His handsclutched at her arms painfully but she held onto him anyway, letting him purgehimself. Eventually his sobs quieted to sniffles, but he did not let her go.Instead he climbed onto the bed and curled himself around her, his right legover her two small ones.

“Am Ihurting you?” he asked.

“No.”she ran her fingers through his red curly hair, it was soft and smelled earthy,like a forest. She inhaled slowly, taking him in, she didn’t want to let himgo. How had this strange man twisted himself into her heart so easily? Why wasshe so drawn to him? He obviously had a lot of issues. Family drama, emotionalbaggage, secrets, and lies. Yet, even if she had been able to, she knew shewould never walk away from him.

“Whatare you thinking?” she finally broke the silence.

“I’mscared.” He replied softly.

“Of?”she prodded.

“Losingmy brother. Losing you. Losing my friends. I’ve never had anything to losebefore and now, everything I have I want to keep. Am I worthy of keeping itthough? My life was shit, I was shit, shit doesn’t deserve to be happy, it justdeserves to be flushed down the toilet.”

“Don’tsay that! You aren’t shit.”

“Youdon’t know me MC. The things I’ve done. The people I’ve hurt.” She could feelhis tears fall again, this time slow and steady. She lifted his face and lookedinto his eyes. They were drowning in sorrow and self-pity.

“Fuckyou Saeyoung, Seven, Luciel!” she growled under her breath. “How dare you callyourself shit! I would never care about shit! Are you saying that there issomething wrong with me for caring about you? For wanting to stay with you? Forwanting to make you happy? Is that what you’re saying? Because if it is, then,fuck you more!”

Saeyoungcouldn’t help but laugh at the profanity that was coming out of this smallwoman, in her squeaky voice.

“Andyou’re laughing at me now?” she arched her brows and scowled at him.

He snappedhis mouth shut, “I’m sorry, no…I…I just…can I…” he leaned in and waited for herto close the distance, not wanting to presume. She made him wait, but finallyshe did connect her lips to his. He kissed her gently, loving the feel of herplump and velvety lips. Her hands caressed his cheeks and made their way intohis hair where they tangled into the curls and clutched at them, pulling himmore firmly against her. He moaned into her mouth and she parted her lips. His tonguedelved in at the invitation. He connected with hers and they twirled aroundeach other taking turns sucking at each other’s tongues. Saeyoung pulled away,trying to catch his breath and clear his mind. She made him question everythingabout himself, his life, his future. He rolled off the bed and stood, runninghis hand through his hair, trying to think.

“Issomething wrong?” she asked weakly.

He turnedto her, lips parted, tongue trying to moisten them. How did his mouth get sodry?

“No.I just. I’ve never…” he shook his head and clasped her hand. “I think we shouldtake things slow. There are things about me, things you should know.”

“Ifit’s about your past, what you’ve done…I don’t care.” She insisted.

He smiledsadly, “I’d still like you to know. And…there are other things…please, just,give me time.”

She smiled,“Of course!”

………………………………..

 MCsat in her apartment, it had been weeks since she had been released from thehospital. She had seen Saeyoung a few times since then, but he was busy withgetting his brother better. She had met several of his friends, Yoosung, Zen,Jumin, and Jaehee. She was especially grateful to Jumin Han who had been theone to send in the security team that rescued them and saved Saeyoung.

Theyhad all seemed quite concerned for her as well. Yoosung had brought her flowerswhen he first met her, walking into her room unexpectedly. She had been shockedto learn that Rika was his cousin, and by the way he spoke about her, no onehad told him that she had been the “Savior”. She decided not to break it to himeither. He was so sweet and kind and caring. While she hated that he seemed toput her up on a pedestal, she was not going to be the one to knock her off forhim. She hoped he would never realize the truth, he was so happy to find thatshe was alive and not dead. Apparently, he believed that she had been heldcaptive by Mint Eye like Saeran and they had messed with her mind as well. MCwas silent as he talked about her, her hands clutched into fists, knowing thetruth. But how could she ever cause those innocent lavender eyes pain?

Saeyounghad brought the others to her room and introduced them as well. Zen flirtedwith her the entire time and she kept looking to Saeyoung to see if he wasjealous, but he only seemed amused, tossing her a wink. She took this to meanthat Zen was always a flirt with all women and therefore she did not take himseriously. Jaehee was attentive, asking all sorts of questions, offering tocall her parents and let them know where she was (which had never even crossedher mind, her family must have been worried sick at her disappearance), sheaccepted the offer and Jaehee flitted away to make the calls.

Juminhad been intimidating. He was tall, handsome, rich, and powerful. But he hadnot hesitated to send help when Saeyoung requested it. He also apologized fornot having acted fast enough and arriving before Mint Eye to the cabin. Shegave him her condolences when she found out that the blue haired man, V, hadbeen a childhood friend of his. Jumin looked away, but not before he saw thesorrow in his eyes. He was very good at hiding his emotions, but if you reallypaid attention to his eyes, they expressed so much.

She hadbeen overwhelmed by the attention the small group had given her. She’d neverreally had friends outside her family and small werecat society. They tended tokeep to themselves. Relationships with humans was not forbidden, but you formedthem at your own risk.

Shewas sure Saeyoung had kept her secret, she only worried about how she was goingto tell her parents that these twins knew she was a werecat. And one was sounstable, he might babble about it. In the end, she decided not to tell themthat Saeran knew. She made it seem as if she had been captured as a cat andkept in a cage, only to have Saeyoung save her. She asked him how he wanted herto introduce him to her family, he had decided on Saeyoung. In fact, he haddecided to throw away both his other identities and be only Saeyoung. Hisfriends seemed supportive of his decision.

Thedoorbell rang and she jumped off the sofa to answer it. She threw open the doorand there stood Saeyoung, the hoodie he had left her back home on his body. Hishair was windblown, his eyes sparkling amber behind his glasses. His eyebrowsfurrowed when he saw her at the door.

“Don’tyou even ask who’s at the door? What if I was a kidnapper? Or a rapist? Youhave to be more careful MC. I could put in a security system for you if youwant. That way you can see who’s at the door.” He pointed above her door, wherehe could attach a camera. She giggled and pulled him in.

He seemeda bit tense and nervous, but he allowed himself to be pulled.

“Uh,I can’t stay long. I just wanted to come by and see how you were doing. If youneeded anything? You look really good.” He ended, looking her up and down. She hadfinally filled out, her curves returning. She wore a mini skirt that fell toher mid-thigh and a t-shirt that hugged her body. Saeyoung licked his lips, hisheart racing. He tried to look away, he knew this had been a mistake. Hismating week started today and he needed to get home to lock himself in. Heclosed his eyes and shook his head, trying to clear his mind, but all he couldfocus on was her scent. He wanted to mate with her, he had known that for awhile now. But, he had not told her about himself. She stepped closer to himand he took a step back, hitting the wall behind him.

“Saeyoung?”his blood was rushing, shit, what was he going to do? He should have knownbetter! Her scent was too strong! It filled his nostrils, filled his mind,filled his cock! He placed his hands down to cover himself, but it only madeher eyes fall on his shame.

“I…Ineed to…I…can’t be here…” but he couldn’t move, couldn’t breathe.

He brokeout into a sweat, his body trembling, his desire rising. Tears sprang to hiseyes, afraid that he would lose control and hurt MC.

She tooka step back with a sudden realization.

“Whatare you?” she asked, her hand at her throat.

Hiseyes widened, his breathing harsh and rapid.

“I’veseen this before, you aren’t a werecat, it isn’t mating season for us. So, whatthen, are you?”

Heslid down the wall, this was not how he had intended to tell her. Between gaspsof breath, he looked at her, a mixture of desire and apology, and with greatdifficulty he hissed out, “Werewolf.”

Werewolf AU

[chibinekochan]

The unknown part 4

Genre :  angst

Rating: 16 +  trigger warnings for kidnapping mentions of torture and abuse nothing graphic but be warned.

Synopsis: You joined the RFA ans became friends with everyone. You really liked Yoosung but it was clear to you we was not over Rika so you where really ok with being their for him as a friend.

Then the whole bomb incident happened. Yoosung and 707 drove to Mint eye. And Yoosung got captured by Unknown. You never wanted them to risk their life for you. The guilt was eating you alive. One day read get a strange Email.

You met up with Unknown he held you captured for a few weeks but now you dont rember anything.

Now you are recovering in a hospital

Notes: this got so long already lol. Sadly I am fighting with pain today.

The next morning you woke up. You looked around to find Jaehee on the chair still next to you. You where surprised to see her awake. “Have you slept at all ?”You asked her kinda worried.

“Yes, I used the bed their but I don't need much sleep so I'm good again,” Jaehee sounded fully rested. You smiled weakly at her nodding.”You are really awesome.” “Thank you Lily. I will go and get a nurse for the medication and some food alright ?” She was so nice to you.

You smiled at her “Okay.”

Jaehee left the room suddenly you felt strange a wave of bad feelings hit you. Your hands where shaking. You looked at your arms their where marks on them from something. The pain you felt was not coming from any of the marks you saw on you it was something in you you had no clue what that was. Your breathing started to get faster before you knew it you where panicking.

You heard the door opening but you could not react to it. “Where is Jaehee....Lily what is wrong did you remember anything?” It was Jumins voice coming closer. It sounded like he was panicking he was almost yelling at you.”Lily what is wrong” Outside someone  was yelling at Jumin to not yell at you. Some sort of quick commotion happened as Jaehee came back. Somehow all that brought you back to your scenes. “What happened “You hear Jaehee saying“I dont know I felt strange for a bit but I am good again.” You where still shaking. Doubtful she looked at Jumin. He had no clue what just happened. “ I will get the Doctor.” he said while leaving the room. “He did nothing wrong.” you said looking at Jaehee. She was not looking like she thought that Jumin did anything wrong. “What was with that man outside the room he yelled at Jumin. Do I know him too?”

Jaehee slightly sighed a bit. “Yeah that was a friend. He wanted to ask in person how you are. He is a good person.” She smiled at you. “If you want you can see him. You don't have to of course. Take your time.” “He came to see if me so I think its okay. He knows I that I cant remember him right?” you thought out laud. Jaehee was nodding. “Yes we told everyone. His name is Zen just be warned he is really Handsome and he is an actor . A scandal would be bad for him so keep that in mind. Never be alone with him.” Somehow her words where harsh. You wounder how you even met him.

“Did I cause a scandal ?” you asked worried. “ Oh no of course not, I just think you should know ahead of time.” Suddenly she looked a bit softer again. You had no idea what that was about so you desired to be careful around Zen. “ I will let you meet him once you ate and took your medication.” The nurse came to give you both and after that Jaehee stepped out to get the Actor.

Jaehee did not lie he was handsome. “Hello I am Zen I think Jaehee told you about me. I wont brother you for long I just wanted to see how you are.” He was friendly smiling at you. Somehow I was awkward how far he stayed back. He looked at you with pain in his eyes. “Yeah she told me that. Did anything, happen between us? if I did anything bad I need to know...”You could not help it this situation was so wired. “No you did nothing. If anything...no nothing happened at all.” He interrupted himself. “I guess we all just feel guilty over what happened to you. It was all our fault...” Was that the reason he looked so sad to you? Somehow you thought he was hiding something.” What exactly happened ?” you looked at him.

Zen was still avoiding your eyes. He thought they already told you so he regretted to bring it up. Now he had to tell you the story like a bad script he learned the sweet lie they agreed on. They where without a doubt Guilty he was the most guilty of them all. It happened right after he dropped you of he could never forgive himself for that. Also that kiss was his fault, his stupid feelings got the better of him in that one moment.

Zen knew that one moment of his weakness only made you feel even worth. It was all his fault so he would take the blame for all. He wanted to be hated by you. Zen knew he deserved it.

So he told you the story they made up how Yoosung got captures while rescuing them all from Mint Eye and how you got captured during the money exchange. That the kidnapper was not trusting them after the exchange how talking to them failed. That somehow they grew Sympathy with you because you are so nice and they released you. He told you how Luciel came to pick you up like a real Hero. He made it sound like he failed to protect you during the exchange and that is why you got captured in the first place.

All pretty close to the truth but as they say you best wrap a lie between two true thinks.

After he finished he looked at you. “I am sorry that was a lot to take in. I should better go now.” Zen looked sad. Something about the story felt off but his sadness and pain was real. “ No you not need to go I don´t remember what happened but I don´t feel like it was your fault. You did all you could do. What is with Yoosung... is he okay?” You only said what you thought. Somehow you felt like a slight relive from Zen.

Their was the woman he knew from the chats. Zen thought on how you where always just thinking on others. You always where just helping everyone he admired how much you cared. Not even once you asked for anything in return.

“Yoosung is still under treatment too but he gets soon released. I know he wants to see you but he feels guilty too... and it is my fault no matter what you say. I will go now.” He turned around to leave. “Thank you for visiting me. I hope to see you again.” somehow this sounded like the only think you could say. You suddenly felt like Zen would not come back unless you stopped him like this. You don't wanted him to leave you like that. You had no idea why the thought of him leaving forever made you sad. “No need to thank me. I will come visit again.” Zen smiled at you it was a fake one but he tried for you. He nodded to Jaehee she nodded back with a cold expression.

Zen left the Hospital he walked away he Started Smoking. Back at his home he would drink beer.

He pictured that day in his head again.

How could he fail you so badly. He ignored your bad state. How was he so    blind ? As an actor he suppose to read people better. After all he lied to you about that kiss so easy too. It was nothing … what a joke. Zen felt attracted to your kindness you helped him you helped everyone. He was sad that you had no further interest in him. You where never flirting back you only wanted to help him. Having you as a friend was okay to him , even when he wanted more. Zen knew it was bad of him to use you in a weak moment like this , it was not what he wanted it just happened. Now everyone hated him for it he hated himself the most. Zen desired to keep his distance. You where never his you liked Yoosung didn't you?

[tori10rambles]

Jumin’s route is done! That was a freaking roller coaster. aka the route in which i probably broke my own heart a little before I even finished Day 4, and it only got worse from there. And DAY 10 DESTROYED ME.

Being the rabid Seven fangirl I am, getting this route was hard. The only thing that kind of soothes my heart is that I didn't get any heart breaks from Seven. (You know, besides his actual heart by Day 10. That kind of negated... almost all my good feelings).

i just want to help like, every single one of these losers with their problems jfc.

Also, per usual, these comments were written as the game was being played, and so are probably kind of incoherent, and switch from first and 3rd person POV sometimes in the middle of the same point. All of that is under the cut.

Also, for some reason, the After end CG didn’t save to my album. Hm....

  Jumin

So much of his personality is explained by his dad honestly. Also, I have a very bad feeling about his dad and the Choi lady.

When you grow up in the public eye, it seems like the choices are to either try to become as bland/invisble as possible to avoid having the paparazzi on your ass (as seen with Jumin), or you do a Tony Stark and make a party/attention whore mask and basically try to own it.

Considering how Jumin describes his dad (skirt chaser? easily seduced by a pretty face?), I'm not completely surprised that he doesn't like women.

Also, should I be concerned that I find his utter failure at photography kind of adorable and odd, considering his best friend is a professional photographer?

...What the fuck did your dad do? A fiancee, seriously? The creepiest part is that apparently she's related/connected to his new skirt?

"I won't sell out my father over my cat." Does that mean your dad's actually tried that/is trying that? jfc

it's kind of cute watching him be concerned over MC, because you can kind of tell that he's warming up to her/starting to like her, but doesn't really get (want to acknowledge?) why.

Your dad is an asshole for using you as a bargaining chip. Also, please note that Jumin apparently cares about the company and how his father's personal life affects it more than his father does. And that Jumin is still more considerate of people's feelings, despite being a "robot."

...Considering the women from your dream sound like gold diggers and possibly at least one cougar/pedophile, I cannot blame you for disliking women.

Also, his dad is really bad at getting him. I feel bad because this seems like the first time this happened? Someone save Jumin from his well meaning, but obviously ignorant-about-his-son's-personality father.

Putting your cat in a cage because you think it’s the safest option does not include the emotional problems of being stuck in a cage

You’re projecting, Jumin... Rika onto Elizabeth? Wtf? I gotta say you apparently dodged a bullet considering what she did to V’s eyes

Jumin talking about controlling his cat is .... really creepy. because he talks about Elizabeth 3rd like she's a person/personified to him, so what would he do with an actual person he cares for?

he thinks intimacy is a luxury. jfc

So I'm at your place, but I'd really like an explanation for the cage.

y'all know things are bad when Jaehee knows he's unstable. ...why am i at his place at night again?

So while I'm enjoying you riling up Zen, some of your comments creep me out ("I don't want anyone else to look at her"). That's creepy (and also not a response I would choose), even if it is kind of cute.

are you offering to cook, or are you offering your chefs? Because strawberry pancakes sound delicious.

...wtf, put me to bed? I am not a child or a pet. 

Yoyoyo, does this imply you had feelings for Rika? omf not another person who wants me to be her replacement jfc yoosung was bad enough

Who is surprised that Elizabeth 3rd ran away? Not me.

i cannot believe you went and used lines from a soap opera to play Sarah. ...And that it worked

...Is this REALLY the time to be kissing me!? And what is it with these men and kissing me when I'm not ready for it!? Seriously, these guys have some awful timing.

Um... no. You are not giving Elizabeth 3rd back to V. You obivously love her, and you need more than just MC to care about, Jumin.

...I cannot believe you just said "the use is fairly similar" when I asked if I was a replacement for your pet. If I could, I'd run. I'd run SO FAR.

I'm pretty sure Elizabeth ran away because you legit went and caged her for hours when she's used to roaming around your penthouse freely.

...forever? HELL NO. I am my own person and deserve to be treated as such.

this complete 180 in personality is disturbing as hell.

Possessive Jumin scares me. A lot. At least he knows a relationship needs time.

...Half the shit coming out of your mouth sounds so creepy.

Trapping me somewhere and telling me it's for my own good is not protecting me... it's making me desperate to leave.

omfg, the Jumin phone call with the hilarious response!

Jumin's building is like a gilded cage. it terrifies me on a level i can't comprehend. like, I may be a bit of a shut in, but even I leave the goddamn building when I feel like it. It's the fact that I have the choice to leave, i think.

He feels... surprisingly less menacing/creepy on Day 9. Thank god.

Oh thank god they found Elly. hopefully this means Jumin will CALM THE FUCK DOWN.

I'm with Jumin on this one, his dad is really blinded if he thinks hiding your credit report from a businessman you're trying to marry is a good idea. That just screams goldigger

The fact that Jumin actually expressed his emotions and concerns to his dad, jfc that's progress. Also, he's managed to find a middle ground, SCORE!

...dude, how often do you say thank you and that you appreciate Jaehee;s work if she's that shocked?

that phone call immediately after the meeting with father is actually pretty sweet? omg. but the one where I call him after that VN was kind of... eh. not as nice

...When was the last time jaehee got a holiday? When was th elast time you LET her!?

...Okay, the VN after the 21:46 chat on Day 10 wasn't bad until the very end. Then it got weird. I am NOT a thing to be devoured jfc.

THANK YOU for seeing what's wrong with Rika's vision of a perfect world.

"We like each other. How can we be dangerous to each other." - THERE ARE SO MANY WAYS TO RESPOND TO THIS I'M NOT EVEN GOING TO START.

YOU ARE NOT PUTTING ME IN A GODDAMNED CAGE. I AM NOT A PET OR AN ANIMAL JFC THAT'S NOT SOMETHING TO JOKE ABOUT.

I feel like you're planning some sick burns, and it involves public humiliation. I'm so down for this.

At least you're letting me out of the penthouse?

Your idea of marriage is weird, but understandable. Also, I hope to HELL that wasn't a proposal after you only met me 10 Days ago, and LOCKED ME IN YOUR APARTMENT FOR MOST OF THOSE DAYS.

...what's with the rings on you status icon?

YES YOU'RE BEING TOO POSSESSIVE.

You sound kind of adorable as a kid.

Now that he's let me go home, he's actually kind of cute? I liked his Christmas DLC ending better tho.

Oh my god, that's savage.Public humiliation ftw.

YOU ACTUALLY PROPOSED. WTF. the dress is awesome though. i'd wear that but with less boob window

Seven

I'm so sorry. T_T I'm leaving your route for last, which means I need to be mean/indifferent to you and this sucks like hell. Especially since I get to talk to you more than once in a while. Almost none of the responses I want to make in Days 1-4 are the ones I chose to get this route. this is pain. none of this is okay. i am not okay. i will probably not be okay whenever i think about seven during Jumin's route.

The space station phone call makes me want to cry, because shit, he obviously is crushing at this point? And I'm going to end up crushing his heart into itty bitty pieces and I can't stand it. It's like... like waiting for the inevitable, and the suspense only builds because you know it's gonna happen, but you don't know how bad the resulting reaction will be.

The cat dream phone call makes me really fucking sad. because taken into consideration with the conversation Unknown and Seven had in Yoosung's route, and Unknown's rant in Yoosung's Bad End 3, I'm getting very concerned about Seven's childhood.

Everytime you break the fourth wall, I squee. And goddamn, you're right about games and Yoosung.

Zen and Seven are so freaking mean to Jumin, omf. but seriously this is the kind of drag I'd do to my friends, so long as they knew I was open for retaliation and didn't mean half of it

Your love for your cars is kind of adorable.

Seven’s friendships w yoosung and zen are hilarious and adorable. Like, give me more of it.

Why do i think that half the things you claim come from a book you read are actually things you think up yourself?

Every time you meet Unknown, my feels hurt. And I really, really want that explanation for who he is.  I mean, I read spoilers obviously, if you've seen my tags, but I wanna see how the game reveals it.

This man, seeing him sound so broken after his encounter with Unknown continues to upset me. That phone call about relationships hurts to, because there is CLEARLY some projecting going on there.

THIS FUCKING PHONE CALL.

Jfc, Seven is not okay. I'm so glad i can ask if he is or not and not end up on a bad end. But damn is it not fun to see him break. And the aftermath.

You're not okay (the 15:29 chatroom sounds like you're talking about Unknown btw, which I mean, MC doesn't know, but is obvious to anyone who is watching you), but I hope you can be okay soon.

Also, this just makes things even worse to me? Because not only has the person he cared about NOT chosen him, but the person from his past who was supposed to be safe and happy apparently hates him. And he's not getting any answers. Like, this just might the worst route for Seven?

Wait, what did V promise you? What does it have to do with unknown? Good lord, I want answers. Mostly so you finally have them.

Zen

Stop flirting with everything in a skirt that breathes. Especially me. That can only end badly.

Also, please know I agree with you SO HARD about Jumin's treatment of his workers, but again, I'm going for Jumin's route this time, which means agreeing with him.

But please, quit picking on jumin about being an "ice king" or "robot," because he literally does not know how to express emotions.

You and Seven are so freaking mean to Jumin, omf.

Zen’s dream is creepy. Adding meowing to the creepy music box music is not cool

your misconceptions about Jumin's life is amusing and concerning

lololol Big Brother Zen does not like MC being alone with Jumin.

Thank you Zen, for saying everything I've been saying about this situation.

religious nuts? Zen!? What if that's Mint Eye

Zen continues to be the best dude for coming to MC's defense.

Yoosung

I'm so afraid for this boy because he's so gullible. You'd think he'd know by now that Seven likes to troll people. No, I'm not counting the resets in that statement. Seven made it clear basically in the first couple of chats/calls/texts he participated in that he's a humongous troll when it suits him.

OMFG the infamous M call. I was not prepared for that holy shit.

omf Yoosung. STUDY. PLEASE. ...And now you have summer classes.

your misconceptions about Jumin's life is amusing and concerning (the bodyguard thing at least)

your insight into Jumin and his view of relationships is... really close to what i thought. good job yoosung!

I pity Yoosung for taking care of Elizabeth.

Jaehee

I'm so sorry I have to condone Jumin's work practices for a good end. And that I just gave Jumin a new cat project. You don't deserve this bullshit. No one deserves this bullshit.

Are you playing wingwoman? because it might actually be working.

I don't blame you for this really creepy situation.

you're so kind of try and assuage Zen's worries.

I understand your frustration with Jumin and wholeheartedly support it

I'm so glad you get a holiday omfg. Also, it’s hella cute and kinda depressing that you’re so happy about getting the vacation.

V

Your friendship with Jumin is so cute wtf.

is it your guilt complex and your need to keep the memebrs "safe" that would make you upset that Yoosung is going along with Seven? Because if so, that's kind of hypocritical considering Seven's a member, and you wanted him to go alone.

Goddamn it V. Thanks to your secrecy, I can't go back to the apartment.

ANSWER SEVEN. PLEASE. SEEING HIM SO DOWN IS NOT FUN.

Oh my god you're sassy. I wasn't expecting that. It's awesome though. Legit, half the fandom seems to forget that V is a sassy mofo. We need more of it.

Rika

...Wow, you are crazy. "A device that can take everything, that can delete everything"... What the hell kind of shit is in that apartment, Rika? Because there is no way there's only information about your party guests... Or is that the entire point? Is there blackmail there?

...You just sounded so nice there, talking to Jumin. Wtf happened to you?

A world without pain or mistakes... that's so idealistic... and impossible. Progress is important! We'll stagnate otherwise, and while being comfortable is important, so is making progress so that EVRYONE is happy. You can't tell me that those who are poor and starving and sick are happy where they are. Feeling sad is HEALTHY, especially after making a mistake or being affected by one. It's what keeps us empathetic and compassionate towards others!

...Are you REALLY asking your BOYFRIEND'S BEST FRIEND if he'd date you? REALLY!? I CANNOT BELIEVE... That's so cruel to V! Even if it WAS a joke!

And honestly, that last statement sounds like you want everyone to like... commit assisted group suicide or something.

Unknown & Mint Eye

Why does it seems like Unknown is talking to you in the VN from Day 2? It's so creepy, especially when you're reading that chat in the dark, after having woken up in the middle of the night for the game.

Goddamn it you gave me a heart attack. I can't tell if it's the music that scared me more or the messages.

...How have I gone three routes and not realized your HQ is a fucking castle?

Sarah & Glam Choi

Fucking gold diggers and attention whores, man. I cannot believe y'all are trying to use Jumin and his dad for money. Like, wtf?

Also, what the hell gave you the idea that Jumin is the type to mix work and pleasure? Also, Jaehee could totally do better than Jumin.

You are never getting rid of Elizabeth 3rd. It's stupid to think you can try, let alone succeed.

Goddamn it, using the paparazzi to your advantage is a dick move.

Knew you were after their money. You company is weak af Sarah, and apparently you have no idea how to make money.

...how stupid are you to think that Jumin couldn't recognize his own goddamn cat.

...Y'all just got PLAYED by the Ice King.

Public humiliation ftw! now leave and don't come back.

Uh... I couldn’t really enjoy this route very much because of the very possessive and creepy undertones halfway through the 11 days. I mean, I know he gets better, but honestly, that shouldn’t be behavior an s/o should have to stick around and try to “fix.” It also sounds a lot like coercive behavior abusers would use? Basically, I think Jumin needs a therapist who will probably need their own therapist instead of a girlfriend, because that kind of emotional burden is heavy and not something I think I personally could handle.

I was talking to someone else about this route, and we agreed that his route really isn’t good for anyone who isn’t personally emotionally or mentally healthy/alright.

[smile-smile-ichthys]

RFA boys with saeran and v reaction to seeing MC after they broke up ( because the cheated ) with bmp princes ^^

OK I actually really liked this request so I’m doing it now! Love Mystic Messenger and I love Be My Princess :D perfect combo :D thanks for this lovely, it sparked inspiration! Again, I won’t be writing Jaehee, I just don’t feel comfortable writing her, some people have already noticed how weak I am at writing her so I don’t because she deserves justice, so I apologise.

Zen:

It had been around six months since we broke up. Not that Iblamed her, I had cheated on her on a drunken cast night out. Stupid mistake,but my fault nonetheless, I couldn’t stop her from leaving, even after hours ofbegging. In the end I had to let her go, I had to be punished for what I haddone. I deserved it. But if I told myself what I would see months later, Iwouldn’t have believed myself.

There she was, the love I had lost walking hand in handwith, none other than, Prince Edward from the Kingdom of Charles. I had no ideahow they had met or even managed to get together, but it still stung when I sawjust how happy she was, how he was looking at her. I gave her that gaze everyday, and I threw it away, and to who? Probably the most romantic person knownto man. Not only was he known as romantic, he was kind, extremely generous and oneof the most eligible bachelors. Being beaten by a prince was hard to take, butI knew if I went over to say hello, I’d just make it worse on myself. I’d hurther, badly, for someone who had cheated to suddenly turn up out of the blue tosay hi? No. Watching them go by with the butler close behind them, I turned awayand let her have what she truly deserved. A man who wouldn’t so much as look atanother woman, would never throw away what he has, someone to truly devote to.

 Yoosung:

Was that? No. It couldn’t have been. And yet as they movedcloser I couldn’t deny it. The only woman I loved so deeply walking casuallyhand in hand down the street with a prince! And with Prince Roberto! I’d heardso many things about him, how playful he was but so loving to his kingdom andpeople, something I couldn’t even do to the woman I loved. Seeing how happythey were together…I felt as if my heart was being squeezed by a vice. It wasmy fault. Of course it was, I was the one who cheated and I had no excuse. Ihad felt down, unsure about how I felt about her, doubted my feelings until Iwoke up in someone else’s bed. I was certain of my feelings then, doubt, hatredto name a couple. I couldn’t hide what I had done and thought that maybe, justmaybe, we could have gotten past it. No. She broke up with me and I didn’tblame her.

She was happy. I could see with the smile on her face, theway their hands swayed between them, them giggling at each other, yeah, it wasthe right decision for her. She had someone she deserved. Even when they seemedto be running away from someone, who I guessed was Prince Roberto’s butler, shelooked like she was having the time of her life. Something I couldn’t give.

 Jumin:

When I had heard from Assistant Kang that a Prince wasvisiting my company, I never would have guessed to see her by his side. Ofcourse I kept my composure, I had to be professional, however the way shelooked down at the ground at my shock hurt me deeply. I still loved her, Inever stopped loving her, even when I stupidly agreed to sleeping with someonefor a business deal. She wasn’t supposed to find out, but when it came out thatit was all a scam…I knew I had messed up badly. She was right to leave. She wasright to find someone else. She was right to move on from me.

The Prince stood proudly with her by his side, not holdinghands, but you could see how much admired her. When we discussed how thecompany ran and how we were going to work with a company back in his own country,he kept glancing at her as if for confirmation. He wanted her opinion, valuedit immensely. The Prince was professional, strict in his emotions, even hisbutler behind him had the same vibe, and yet he was constantly making sure mylove was alright. My heart hurt and the whole meeting was torture. It was nosurprise that once they left I cancelled everything for the rest of the day tocoop myself up in my penthouse to recover.

 Saeyoung:

Why? I thought the pain was finally receding, but seeing herin the café with another man, a prince no less, just brought all of it back. Mychest tightened and my heart felt heavy once again, I almost collapsed to theground. Instead of going inside, I watched from a distance, maybe knowing shewas happy with this man would be enough to help me move on. Their hands brushedseveral times, Prince Keith even kissed her hand every now and then. Agentleman, no, a prince being a prince. The café was empty, both of them beingwaited on I guessed was his butler. Yeah, 5 star service and no less. Shesmiled, laughing, kissed his hand in return. This wasn’t helping me at all. Hewas giving her something I was not able to.

To this day I still don’t know why I did what I did. I sayit was because I was undercover, I had to do it, I had to. And yet, I knew Ididn’t. I could have said no, walked away, gone back to her and none of thiswould have happened. We would be at home now, cuddled up together under ablanket with chips and pop. But no. She had moved on, was with a prince, theright person to be with.

I couldn’t cope anymore, I had to get out, to stop thispain.

 Saeran:

Anger was all I felt. Towards her with Prince Joshua? No. Onlyto myself. The happiness I could have had right in front of me. I didn’t evenknow there was a small parade of the prince’s arrival here, and yet, I guessedthis was my punishment for cheating on her. I knew why I had done it. We’d hada fight, a big one, and I needed to take my anger out on something, and itended up being another woman. I didn’t forgive myself, I never could. Insteadof fighting for her to stay, I let her go, almost pushing her away. She didn’tdeserve me, not by a long shot.

The prince smiled at her, kissed her head too as they wentpast where I was stood. The rage in myself grew to something I knew I couldn’tcontrol. I deserved this. I deserved this. I. Deserved. This. This pain I feltin my chest, in my heart, in my soul. It kept repeating as I watched them gointo the distance, starting their new life together, a happy life. Whereas Istill struggled to continue day after day with the guilt.

It had to stop. But did it? No. Yes. I screamed as I ranhome. I had to do something.

 V:

Was it bad that all I felt was…acceptance? Prince Yakov hadannounced his engagement that day but I didn’t realise it was to her. To thewoman who helped me get past Rika, past…well my past. She had done so much forme and I had hurt her as a return. Of course it hurt, but it was my own stupidfault that we weren’t together anymore. Nothing I said or did would have fixedthe situation. She had moved on to find someone who was more then capable oflooking after her, loving her, caring for her, without having the thought of anotherwoman.

Me? I had learned another hard lesson. I shunned myself awayfrom love from then on, I knew I didn’t deserve it anymore. My wish of findingsomeone after Rika had been granted and I pushed it away. No. Being on my ownwas the only answer, and alone I would stay, watching her from a distance,hoping, praying, that she would live a long and happy life as a princess by hisside.